Sex addict + Luh

T h i r t y - s e v e n

|Ariana|

Why was it so dark?

I flutter my eyes open to see that I'm now in a hospital room. I see my dad sat in a seat in the corner.

"What happened?" I groggily ask rubbing my eyes. I stare at the moonlight from outside the window.

    How long had I been out?

    What the hell happened?

"Your telling me you have no clue what might've happened?" He says rubbing his head.

"No." I say with a frown.

"Ariana, sweetheart you were pregnant."

No. That just can't be right. I thought I heard my father say that I was pregnant. No he must've made a mistake. "What?"

    "Ariana you had a miscarriage."

    I had no words. I lifted myself up when my dad slowly pushed me back. "Rest Ariana. I'm gonna call your mom and let her know you woke up."

    He walked towards the door but paused mid way. "Does the father know?"

    "That depends." I say as the tears fall from my eyes down to my cheek. "Does Nate know?"

    "Nate?" He says gritting his teeth. "I could kill that bastard."

    "Dad, no. It's not even remotely his fault."

    He glares at me and frowns before finally exiting the room.

    Nate then enters the room and takes a seat in the empty chair next to my bed. "When were you going to tell me?"

    "I didn't know." I cross my arms staring out at the window.

    "Ariana I don't know how this happened I put on a con-"

    My eyes fall on his, the guilt was written all over his face. "Condoms break, it's not your fault." 

    Tears began to fall from my eyes. "I don't even know why I'm crying."

    "Ariana you just lost a baby, it's okay to cry."

    I feel myself start to sob hardly. I grab onto nates hand and embrace him in a long comforting hug. "Nate we had a baby." I look up into his eyes sniffling.

    "We did."

    I glared at my phone on the table, I gesture Nate to get my phone and he brings it to me. Messages all from Ava. Shoot. I was suppose to give her a ride to the hospital.

    I hold up my phone to my ear and wait for her answer. "Where are you?" she says with an upset tone.

    "The hospital." I say drifting off.

    "Did you just get here I'm in derek's room Ariana-"

    "Uh Ava.. I'm a patient at the hospital, I can't move from my bed." I chuckle like it was no big deal when really I just wanted to scream.

    I was pregnant, how did I not see the signs.

    "Oh my god Ariana, what happened?"

    "Not important. What's up with derek?"

    "Ariana- he's awake." She says laughing into the phone. The phone fell from my hand. I was shaking.

    I disconnect everything attached to me setting off the heart monitor.

    I get up from the bed when Nate starts blocking me from the door. "Woah, and where do you think your going?"

    "To derek he's awake." I say with annoyance. "LET ME THROUGH NATE."

    "Yea I know he's awake, but you need to chill you had a miscarriage. You have to be careful."

    I Stare into his eyes. I begin to bang all the force that i could with my hands onto his chest. "Let me through you- fucking sperm carrier."

    He starts to die of laughter as I give up.

    "Shut up. I NEED TO SEE DEREK." I scream as I start to cry out of no where.

    "These stupid mood swings." I sigh and sit back down. "I'm not even pregnant anymore, why are they still present."

    I watch as the doctors rush into the room as the heart monitor still went off. "Wow guys, If I were actually dying I would've been dead by now you guys need to pick up the pace."

    My doctor laughed before connecting me back onto the machine. "Sorry Ariana, I'm doctor augustas." He laughed. "It's just everyone's upstairs seeing this rapper that woke up from his a com-"

    "Derek." I say catching the doctors attention.

    "You a fan?" He chuckles writing things down onto a clip board.

    "No. I know him."

    The doctor smiled at me. "Don't think that just because you say that you can go see him, you fans are getting no where near the boys room."

    Nate chuckled. The doctor looked at him and squinted his eyes at him. "You, You were in Mr.Luhs room.. the bestfriend?"

    The doctor turned back to me and smiled. "So Im guessing you do actually know him?"

    "Bingo." I smile. "Would it be possible for me to see him?"

    "Ariana, I don't know. You just had a miscarriage. You have to understand that a miscarriage is a very serious thing especially at your age. I am very sorry for your loss by the way Ariana."

    "I'm fine, I didn't even know I was pregnant. I don't care."

I turned to Nate to see that he felt hurt by words. God.

    "Ariana, you might feel that way right now but 60% of woman who have miscarriages fall into depression."

    I laughed. "That must mean I'm in that 40% then."

    "I'm very serious Ariana. You'll be fine and we were able to make sure that your ovaries were secured and weren't damaged."

"So I can have kids in the future?" I worriedly asked. I wanted to be able to offer the boy that I married kids, without that what use am I?

"Yes Ariana, thankfully. Ariana I would suggest you going on the pill from now on, if you're going to be sexually active."

    Nate looked at me and frowned.

    "Nate." I said slowly. "I'm fine, you don't have to worry okay."

    "Can't you just put me in a wheel chair and wheel me over to Derek's room?" I suggest frowning. "Please I have to tell Derek that I love him."

    My doctor sighed. "Fine Ariana. No major movements. Your still fragile."