Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo? DATI (COMPLETED)

Frisky Business

August 19, 10:00pm:

Lying on my bed, I exhale the deep breath I took slowly after I read your message.

"Okay. Kalma lang, RJ. Cool ka lang. Parang first time naman oh. Natutulog ka na din naman doon dati pa nang wala si Dean. Normal best friend thing niyo yun dati. Ang simple lang ng message ni Meng para mag-panic ka nang ganyan." I sigh. "Kaso she's not just your best friend anymore and little RJ seems to know that too. Jusko! Ayaw kumalma."

I read your message again.

Love, can you come over and stay the night? I really missed you while you were away and we haven't really had time to catch up since you got back. Wala si Dean tonight so we could really have the night to ourselves if you're up for it.

Okay. It's not your message but how my body is responding to your message because damn I miss you so much and I am aching for you in every way possible. Just the thought of you snuggling with me on the couch, with your warm body against mine, your sweet scent on my nose and your soft lips on my lips, kissing you, tasting you, feeling you, makes me... Oh shit!

Yeah, I am UP for it. Tangina talaga. Good luck sa self-control ko.

We haven't done it and I haven't been with anyone for so long and I am insanely hot for you. It has always been a struggle to keep my desire for you way back when we were just friends at bay what more now that we are officially together and I have this crazy yearning for you. #paano talaga.

I still text you back to say that I'll be there in an hour before sitting up and setting my phone down.

"Okay, little RJ, maybe if I take care of you now, I wouldn't have to deal with you later." I sigh before dragging myself to the shower.

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"Hi!" You beam as you open the door for me and I instantly feel my heart jump out of my chest, butterflies flutter in my stomach and my blood rush down south.

Damn that little black dress and that high bun that shows off everything that makes my knees weak. I swear I will rip that dress off and burn it.

Nope. No ripping. Iba naiisip ko.

"Okay ka lang?" You ask. "I dressed up a little coz I prepared a little dinner date for us. I hope hindi ka busog." You smile, that smile that always warms my heart and for a moment I am relieved of my dilemma.

You kiss me on the cheek and take my hand then lead me to the dining room where you have set up a romantic dinner for two with roses and candles and steak and pasta and wine.

Wine. Sabi nila pag may alak may... Wala! Kalimutan mo yan. Tignan mo nga ang ganda ng ngiti ng girlfriend mo sa'yo. Makinig ka sa kwento.

And so I listen to your stories and we share many more over dinner as we laugh and giggle and whisper sweet nothings and feed each other.

We have such a great time together. We always do and I want nothing more than to live each day like this with you.

After our meal and cleaning up in the kitchen, we take our glasses and the bottle of wine to the living room. We are on our third glass and I'm literally starting to feel warm.

You play the movie you chose for us, a good romantic comedy, called There's Something About Mary.

You cuddle up next to me on the couch as we watch and sip some wine. There's laughter, your musical contagious laughter, then the fragrance of your hair, your hand on my chest, your beautiful sparkling eyes looking up at me, your warm breath on my neck and before I could stop myself my lips are on yours.

I kiss you slowly and gently and you kiss me back. You glide your hand up my arm and shoulder then run your fingers up my nape and lace them through my hair. Every tender second of that kiss ignites a fire in me and when you part your lips for me and moan softly, I lose all control.

I kiss you more aggressively, slipping my tongue in your mouth, pushing and rolling in against yours, tasting you and exploring the depths of your crevice as one hand pull you closer around your waist and the other caress your cheek and slip down the base of your smooth neck. It takes every strength in my body to keep them there as I lay you down slowly on the couch.

I try my best to keep my raging desire at a certain level, to not cross the line that we have not been but the way you suck, lick and tug back, your sultry moans and sighs and the way your body molds and moves under me spirals things out of my control.

I start kissing your deeper and hungrier then my mouth leaves yours and start trailing down your neck, gently sucking, nipping and tasting your silky skin while my hand slips under the hem of your dress and caresses your thigh.

I am lost, delirious and burning with passion. My mouth is now on the soft skin peeking above your neckline and my hand is dangerously close to that coveted apex between your thighs when I hear you gasp and feel you freeze.

I stop immediately and look up. I see pleasure in your eyes but also fear and hesitation then your lips start trembling. That is like cold water doused on my body. I sit up and pull you up with me then wrap my arms around you reassuringly.

We sit quietly hugging for a while as our thundering hearts and heavy breaths calm down. I gently stroke your hair and back as you cuddle on my chest.

"I'm sorry." You whisper.

"Ano? Wag. Hindi, Love. I'm sorry. I pushed too far. I'm sorry." I say and kiss your hair. "We won't go there unless you want to."

"I want to." You whisper shyly. "I want tonight to be special."

"It is special." I smile. "You are special. Hindi mo kailangang gawin yun. We'll get there when you're ready."

"I am. I want to." You sigh and sit up then look into my eyes. "I love you so much and I don't want to lose you kaya when I went into this relationship with you I wanted to give you everything you want and need. I want to give you all of me. I want this kaya lang nauunahan ako ng nerbiyos ko. Sobrang big deal sa akin to be in a relationship so doing it is an even bigger deal. So kahit makulit ako at maharot, even though I kissed you kahit di pa tayo noon, I have never... uhm... Paano ba? I was too young with my first boyfriend and I never went that far with the other guys, so... wala pa talagang... uhmmm... Gosh! I sound fifteen." You pause and blush and bow your head shyly then tuck your hair behind your ear.

Why? Bakit ka nahihiya? With what you're telling me right now, you're shinier than Ironman's arc reactor.

I pull you closer to my chest and kiss your forehead. "Ssshhh... You don't have to explain, Love. I love you at hinding- hindi ako mawawala sa'yo. I don't need that to make me want to stay with you, I just need your love. Yun lang. Hangga't alam kong mahal mo ako at alam kong gusto mo akong makasama, masaya akong magmamahal sa'yo. Dito lang ako. You love me, right?"

You nod your head and snuggle closer. "I do." You whisper. "So much."

"I love you more and more."

"Kahit na wala munang..." It's cute how you can't even say it directly.

"Kahit pa. Mahal na mahal kita."

"Mahal na mahal din kita." You say and to me that is more than enough. ❤️

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