Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo? DATI (COMPLETED)

Sleepless Night

November 16, 2017:

I have been staring at my phone for the last hour hoping for a text or call even though you already told me you will be busy for the rest of the evening and won't be able to contact me until much later.

It wouldn't be fair to demand for your time and attention when all you have done was patiently wait for mine during those time when I was the one preoccupied with work and business and family matters. It was my turn to patiently wait for you like you have so amazingly done for me but I could not help this strong yearning for you that has been nagging me since your last call.

It has only been an hour and I was already driving myself half-crazy what was I to do for the rest of the night?

I sighed and stared at my ceiling, thinking of ways to keep myself busy to forget about missing you but I was definitely in no mood to play games, not even my most favorite game can take my thoughts away from you. I turned On the TV and absentmindedly scanned through the shows on Netflix then turned it Off again. My mood wasn't exactly peachy at the moment to even attempt to socialize so visiting the restaurants or going to the mall was out of the question.

I lay thinking for a couple of hours with nothing. I was mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted.

What I really wanted to do was to be with you, to hold you, to nuzzle on your skin and inhale your sweet scent, to kiss you, to whisper in your ear and hear you giggle, to feel your breath on my neck and your body molded with mine but I couldn't do that because you were one thousand one hundred twenty nine kilometers away from me.

"Aaaah! Ayoko na nga! Mas mababaliw ako dito mag-isa!" I yelled as I ruffled my hair.

I sat up and looked at our framed pictures on the shelves with my Ironman toys.

"Miss na miss na talaga kita. Anong gagawin ko?" I sighed and pressed my hands to my temples in deep thought.

Finally, too tired to think, I let my heart take over. It said I should get out of bed so I did. I put on fresh casual clothes, packed my backpack, grabbed my wallet, phone and keys then left.

I got in my car and drove away not knowing where I was going. It was too dark to go back to the beach and being there will only make me miss you more. My friends were all too busy for the night and I really didn't feel like hanging out with anyone else.

I drove on.

I turned to the airport and parked in front of the departure area. I went back and forth a thousand times if I should go down, board a plane and fly to you or not. My heart wanted nothing more than to fly to you but then my mind interjected. What if someone sees me? What malicious things would other people say about you if they find out I followed you to HongKong? What would they say about me if I missed work? I didn't think you would be too pleased with that idea either so I started my engine and started driving again until I reached a familiar place.

I entered the building and parked my car then as the engine stopped, my spirit settled.

"Okay. Dito na." I sighed and got my bag from the backseat.

I got in the elevator then opened the door with my keys. The place wasn't empty. Someone was there.

"Kuya!" Dean greeted me when I went inside. "Bukas pa dating ni Menggay."

I nodded my head. "Alam ko, Dean pero di kasi ako makatulog kaya nag-drive lang ako ng nag-drive at dito ako dinala ng kotse ko." I said.

"Sus! Pinagbintangan pa yung kotse. Miss mo lang si Menggay noh?" Dean chuckled.

I sighed. "Sobra. Nalulungkot ako mag-isa sa kwarto."

"Dito ka na lang matulog. Pwede kitang tabihan." Dean laughed. "Joke lang!" He cringed. "Nangilabot ako." He said, laughing even harder.

I laughed with him. "Thank you, Dean. Kahit dito na lang ako sa sala." I said.

"Sigurado? Okay ka naman sa kwarto ni Menggay na lang. Basta maligo ka muna bago ka humiga dun kundi tatadtarin tayo at gagawing siopao nun pag-uwi." Dean suggested.

"Okay lang sa'yo?"

"Oo naman. Ikakasal na din naman kayo. Dapat sanayin ko na ang sarili ko na ang lahat ng kay Menggay, sa'yo na din." Dean smiled.

"At sa kaniya ang lahat ng akin." I answered.

"Lam ko na yun! Pati credit card mo nga sa kanya eh. Yun ba naman ipabaon mo sa HongKong. Di ka ba natatakot?" He chuckled.

"Hindi. Para sa kanya talaga yun. Bilhin na niya ang lahat ng gusto niya." I smiled.

"Oo na. Ikaw na ang sugar daddy." He laughed. "Sige na. Sa kwarto na ako, Kuya. May food sa kusina kung magutom ka."

"Instant ramen?"

"Tumpak! Taga-dito ka na nga talaga. O siya! Good night." He said and turned to his room.

"Good night, Dean. Salamat ulit."

With one last wave of his hand, he disappeared into his room.

I then went to your room and smiled, remembering all our times together. I showered and changed into the clothes I brought then crawled into bed with your old shirt that I got from the bathroom. It still smelled like you, sweet and light. Even your bed was wrapping me with your fragrance.

I slowly felt my eyes drooping and my heartbeat calming down. I laid your shirt on a pillow beside me and cuddled it. I sighed and smiled. "Here. Right here, where I can feel you all over me, is where I should be."

I typed four words that I sent to you before finally falling asleep.

Sweet dreams, my love. 💛

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