Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo? DATI (COMPLETED)

Clandestine-4

Finally, there you were, standing at the back porch of your family's farm house with Matti holding your hand.

The string quartet then started playing Yellow by Coldplay.

I smiled but deep inside I was a nervous wreck, my insides were churning and my heart was beating wildly in my chest. I was not sure if you noticed the sweat beading at my forehead and soaking through my shirt non-stop. It has been raining and the breeze was quite cool in the farm but still bullets of sweat kept seeping out of my pores.

To say that you looked beautiful was an understatement. No, beautiful is not as powerful a word to describe the vision that stood before me. Even with your simple make-up, puffy eyes from crying (which was really my fault. I'm sorry.) and your hair pulled up in a messy high bun, you were a sight to behold in that white dress.

You were... are... what's the word? Ethereal.

Too perfect for this world... You are ethereal.

Seeing the pain in your eyes did not help my cause and when you replied "I hate you." with a pout to my "Sorry. I love you.", I grinned as a reflex.

I grinned in hopes that you did not mean what you said.

Please, God, let that be a joke.

I grinned because quite frankly, my anxiety was eating me away.

Questions and doubts whirred in my heard: Am I being too confident about this? Will she say yes? She never said yes, I just assumed she'd say yes although she did propose earlier so she'd probably say yes. She said then that her mind was made up but that was before I said No and broke her heart so she probably hates me right now and would most likely dump my sorry ass in front of her entire family.

You did not take another step, you just stood there staring at me with piercing eyes. I held my breath until Tatay finally called Matti over and lead you to where we stood under the gazebo.

I chewed on my lip, struggled to keep a steady breath, placed a hand on my chest to calm my racing heart and blinked back the tears in my eyes as I watched you walked down the aisle... uhm... the path rather... the path to me.

"Aw-deh." Matti grinned and reached out for my hand which I gave him once you stopped a foot away from me.

He then touched our knuckles together and said. "Hawak." I did. I held your hand and he giggled, making you look at him and smile heartily. A first since the incident earlier. (Again, I'm sorry.)

"Matti..." Daddy called and Matti ran straight into his arms, grinning and calling him "Wowo" which I knew made Dad very happy.

So there we were standing hand in hand for a few minutes looking everywhere but at each other.

Yup, perfect timing, Faulkerson. How wonderful to propose habang may tampuhan kayo. Brilliant! Excellent! Magnificent!

I continued to scorn myself with sarcasm in my thoughts because I really felt horrible for what happened. Not because you would probably say No to my marriage proposal but because I hurt you. I hate seeing you cry and I made you do just that on what could be the greatest day of our lives so far.

To be fair, I really didn't expect you to go down on one knee and propose. That was not part of the plan and how can I say yes to that when I already have all these set up with the help of your family. Tatay  even gamely played along and acted with me to throw you off the trail. We all knew how good you are in cracking codes and surprises and we needed to do something major.

When everybody quieted down with their full attention on us, that was when we finally turned to look at each other. You averted my gaze at first and attempted to pull your hand away but I held it tight and sought your eyes with mine.