Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo? DATI (COMPLETED)

EYHNTK- #Clueless

January 29, 2018:

We've made it out of the woods, didn't we? At least that's how it felt for me.

Just two months ago, you drifted away from me and I could only dream of touching the tips of your fingers. Now, two days ago, I could even go as far as holding your hand while walking in the open streets of Hong Kong.

Back then, the darkness of the sadness that engulfed you hid the radiance in your smile and I have wished to have the pleasure to bring that spark back in your eyes. Now, I get to see that jaw-dropping and heart-melting beauty once again, up close, softly brushing my skin accompanied by the melodious sound of your laughter.

I couldn't even kiss you then. I lived each day with the memory of your sweet lips on mine but could never really taste them. Now, once again, I have the exclusive privilege of being the only man to kiss those million dollar kissers. I won't need to go a day without their delicious sensation on my mouth along with every inch of your skin and all else in between.

I tried my best not to show it back then but my longing for you and the helplessness to reach out to you and keep you was too great to keep hidden. They always found a way to show through my eyes and empty smiles but that's all in the past now.

Some people asked why I put up with you and all the hurt. What they don't understand and can not accept, is that I didn't.

I didn't put up with you because whatever came in between us, whatever pain surrounded us, whatever hatred tried to pull us apart, no matter how much hurt and tears we have cried, nothing's changed. I loved you through it all. I loved you more.

I did not just tolerate or endure. I embraced and breathed all of you because you are my life, my miracle, the very essence of my happiness, my everything.

I know I can never find someone like you, who could make me feel so much, who love me unconditionally, who always thought of my happiness and made sure I had that joy before she did, who would put my dreams ahead of hers, who would understand that I can only be with her 10 percent of the time because there was so much more that I needed to do, who would be just as happy with the little things that I can do as with the grand gestures, like how the little note I passed to you this morning gave me the same smile as the huge bouquet of flowers that I brought to you on our monthsary and how the breakfast that came with those few words elicited the same expression of surprise as when you opened the door for me in Boracay.

You always gave me more than I can hope for and never asked for more than I can give. You patiently wait and never complain and it is because you ask for nothing that I want to give you the world. It is because you are you and the way you love me that I can never be without you, Maine.

We've been through a lot, still going through a lot and will be going through so much more but as long as you give me the honor to love you, I will give you all that I am and be your everything too, my Nicomaine.

Now, in the late hours of a Monday night, as I waited for your call to pick you up from your shoot's location, I could easily get lost in my thoughts of you and me with a silly grin on my face, devoid of the bitterness of the past.

My phone did ring but it wasn't you. It was Leysam, asking me about an issue that has been making noise on Twitter that I was totally unaware of. I promptly ended the call, opened said app and checked my feed. True enough. It was filled with words of anger, judgement, hurt and hate towards you from the same people who once loved you, a harrowing reminder of the torment we have just gotten over.

I did not understand how they could think that you deserve such hate. For what? For whom? For me? They are clueless to think that I would need them to defend or protect me from you because they have no idea what we have been through, as we fought in silence for the love and happiness that we have. They were kept in the dark so I understood the confusion but I can never understand the deliberate intention to hurt you, to hurt us.

I dialed your number and the next voice I heard was yours. You tried to hide behind a cheerful greeting but I knew you more than that. I can easily tell that you were upset and alarmed and I felt my heart crushing and swelling with rage at the same time. I was hurt with the pain I heard from you but I also wanted to lash out, to hurt them back, to beat them out of every senseless word they said that caused your pain.

"I don't even know how it happened. I swear I didn't do it. Alam mo naman yun. Wala tayong problema and even if we did, it would not come to that. Paano na-unfollow?" You asked.

"Hindi ko din alam. Naglalaro lang naman tayo nung Sabado, nung inaasar mo ako and you threatened to unfollow me and then I kissed you and then..."

"Oh my god!" You gasped. "Do you think that's it? I mean nakita ko na lang young phone ko sa floor, low batt na, after we..."

"Oh my god!" I slapped my forehead at the realization. "Baka yung nga. Baka napindot."

"Paano na to? Sa dami naman kasi nang mapipindot bakit yun pa." You said.

"Okay na yun kesa live feed. Can you imagine if we went live while we were doing it?" I actually smirked at the thought.

"Jusko! I would have died." You giggled. "So paano na nga? What do I do?"

You laughed and that somehow appeased my anger.

"Bukas mo na isipin. Tapos ka na ba diyan? Sunduin na kita?" I asked but it didn't really matter if you said yes or no because I was already out of the door with my keys in hand.

"Yup. Patapos na." You answered and I was relieved.

It was almost midnight. You must be tired from working the whole day and emotionally battered from the things you read. I wanted nothing more than to take you home, hold you in my arms, and drown out all the destructive noise with the soft whispers and touches of my love.

"Papunta na ako." I said.

"Okay." You answered but your voice sounded distant as you were still thinking of a solution to a mistake that unwittingly caused such trouble.

"Sabi nang bukas mo na isipin eh." I sighed.

"Paano naman? Ang hirap." You said.

"Basta bukas. Follow back and tell the truth. We both know you're not very good at lying."

"The truth?! Anong truth? That I accidentally clicked unfollow because we were having sex?!" You laughed and so did I.

"Pwede. Baka dun matahimik ang lahat." I chuckled.

"Baliw! Gusto mo bang mabalatan ng buhay ni Tatay?" You said with a muffled giggle.

"Just tell them napindot. Hindi ka nagsisinungaling, just withholding part of the truth." I grinned.

"They won't believe that." You sighed.

"But I will." I said.

You were quiet for a few seconds then I heard you sigh. "That's enough for me." You said. "I love you, RJ."

"I love you more, Meng." I answered before we hung up.

We've been through a lot, still going through a lot and will be going through so much more but as long as we have each other, everything will be alright.

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Unbeta'ed and not proofread. Thank you for reading.