Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo? DATI (COMPLETED)

Air Dance

You were behind me with your hand on the small of my back when we entered the dressing room with some of the co-hosts and our teams after the opening number.

"Bihis lang ako." You whispered but before you could take a step away from me, I quickly turned and hugged you, much to your and everybody else's surprise.

I knew there were a lot of people around us. I knew that what I did would be compromising our agreement to keep our relationship a secret but I couldn't help myself.

Blame my period and the crazy hormones, blame my restless heart that's racing wildly in my chest. Blame the chills that's been running through my veins. Blame the irrational fear that I have upon watching you suspended 20-feet in the air while doing exhibitions and somersaults on a hoop without a freaking harness!

Blame me. Be angry with me but I just really needed to feel you in my arms, safe and whole and be reassured that I still get to live the rest of my life with you.

I buried my face on your chest and sniffled. "Maine?" You whispered, your voice filled with concern, as you stroked my hair and hugged me tighter.

The people around us must have sensed that my actions weren't just our usual juvenile banter and pranks but rather something serious so they somewhat awkwardly made up excuses to go somewhere and give us some privacy.

After everyone has left, you brushed away the hair from the side of my face and lifted my chin so we can gaze at each other eye to eye.

"Anong problema, Love? Bakit ka umiiyak?" You asked softly as you wiped away the tears from my cheeks.

"I hate you!" I pouted and pinched your side.

"Ha?! Bakit?! What did I do?" You chuckled nervously probably figuring out if I was serious.

I sobbed and pounded your chest. "Tinakot mo ako. Bakit walang kang harness? Bakit ang taas ng hoop? Paano kung nadulas ang kamay mo? Paano kung namali ng sabit yang legs mo? Paano kung umiral na naman ang pagka-lampa mo? Paano kung nahulog ka? Paano ako? Paano tayo?" I ranted with a hit on your arm and chest and a sniffle punctuating each question.

You sighed and squeezed me tighter. I may be close to suffocating but I did not complain. I welcomed the feeling of being held constrictingly because it was YOU and you were there with me.

You kissed to the top of my head and nuzzled in my hair. "Sorry kung nag-worry ka. Wala kasi talagang harness dapat di ba sa practice natin ganoon. Akala ko din okay kasi hindi ko in-expect na ganoon kataas. Di ba sa practice di naman ganoon? Eh ang taas ng ceiling ng MOA arena." You said with more nervous chuckles. "Natakot din ako ah."

"I hate you." I whispered.

"Love, sorry na. Hindi ko nama... ooomph..."

You started to explain but I stopped you by holding your face in my hands and kissing you on the lips full and hard, inhaling deeply as if the only breath my lungs could take was the one I shared with you because I needed everything, anything to chase away my fears.

"Marry me." I blurted out after the kiss, with my eyes closed and my forehead on your chin.

"Ano?" You asked in shock.

"Pakasal na tayo." I said.

"Seryoso ka ba?" You chuckled.

I sighed and didn't answer. You kissed my forehead and caressed my cheek then stroked up my jaw up so I would face you. You looked deep into my eyes and asked again.

"Seryoso ka ba? Gusto mo na talaga? Kasi ako ready ako anytime. Ito na ba ang sagot ko sa proposal ko?" You asked, your eyes hopeful, your face determined.

"I... I don't know." I muttered and looked down. "Ang alam ko lang takot na takot ako. Takot na takot. Takot akong masaktan ka. Takot akong mapahamak ka. Takot akong may mangyari sa'yong masama. Sobrang takot akong mawala ka. Hindi ko talaga kakayanin yun. Hindi talaga." I sobbed.

"Uuuy..." You cradled my face in your hands and brushed the tears away with your thumbs. "Tama na yan please. Ang sakit na oh. Iiyak na din ako. Sige." You smiled and pressed a kiss on each of my eyelids and my nose.

"Iyakin ka naman talaga. Wala nang bago." I sniffled and you laughed.

"Grabe ka sa akin." You grinned. "Natakot din ako ah pero kumapit akong mabuti. Sinigurado ko ang lahat ng gagawin ko dun. Sinigurado kong safe ako kasi iniisip kita."

"Ako?"

"Oo. Ikaw ang dahilan kaya ang tindi ng kapit ko kanina sa hoop kasi naisip ko, magpapakasal pa tayo, magha-honeymoon sa Maldives, magkakaroon ng limang anak, lilibutin pa natin ang mundo nang magkasama, magtatayo ng sampu pang Concha's at McDo pati Shell gas stations, hihilutin mo pa tong tuhod ko pag dumating ang araw na magka-rayuma na ako tapos hahawakan at hahalikan ko ang kulubot mong kamay at hahaplusin ang puti mong buhok at araw-araw kong sasabihin sa'yo na mahal na mahal kita." You told me with a smile on your lips and tears brimming your eyes.

"I love you." I whispered as I touched your cheek. "I love you so much."

"I love you more and more and more." You said and kissed my lips gently.

We stayed quietly holding each other for a while, foreheads touching, swaying to a song our hearts played with contented smiles on our faces while you twirled your fingers at the the ends of my hair until we heard a knock and a call for us to get ready for the next segment.

We shared another kiss before we opened the door.

"Meng..." You called after me after I joined my style team, headed for the other dressing room.

I looked back and smiled.

"Next time na sabihin mo ulit yun, di ko na tatanong kung seryoso ka. Didiretso na tayo kay mayora." You grinned. 💛🍃

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Unbeta'ed and not proofread. Thank you for reading.