Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo? DATI (COMPLETED)

#JustFriends- Missing Us

It was almost midnight when you called. I was alone in the room I'm staying in with my cousin, tired but somewhat distracted from the troubles I've had the past weeks. Being around family, surrounded by warmth, love and support, exploring a new environment was like a refreshing shower after a long and exhausting day at work and traffic.

I just saw a video of you that I found on Instagram and I was still giggling from it when I answered your FaceTime call.

"Hi! Uy! Ang saya natin ah." You smiled.

"Well... I..." I paused to let out a few more snickers before I went on. "I saw a clip on IG kasi. Ang cute na kinukurot mo yung sarili mong bilbil. Wala eh. Payat ka pa din." I chuckled.

You laughed. "Oo nga. Alam ko matagal kong inasam na pumayat at maging fit pero nakaka-miss din pala yung burjer ano?" You grinned, your eyes reduced to slits and your dimple dipped. It was that smile that always makes me smile back so I did.

"Oo nga. Nakaka-miss yung burjer." I said more nostalgic than I intended and your smile softened as your your eyes became wistful like you just remembered a beautiful memory.

"Naalala mo pag kinukurot mo ang burjer ko? Aliw na aliw ka eh. May gigil pa." You chuckled.

Yes, of course I remember but I'm not about to tell you that and let you know how I think about us and everything that we do all the time.

"This scruffy look you got going on is that a thing you need for a role or something?" I laughed, rather uneasily, to divert our conversation from where I knew it was going.

"Hindi. Ano... Wala lang. Naalala ko kasi you prefer that I don't use hair products so you can rake your fingers through my hair lalo na kapag nakahiga ako sa lap mo habang nanonood tayo. Remember that?" You asked, your eyes staring at me intently.

Okay. So we went there. I couldn't think of anything else to say that wouldn't be related to how we were when we were together.

"You know what I will never forget? I will never forget how you touch my face. You have the softest hands. Sobrang lambing. Alam mo? Whenever you do that ang pakiramdam ko, tayo lang ang tao sa mundo at ako lang ang nakikita mo."

Tama. Tama ka. Ikaw lang naman talaga.

I did not dare say a word because I know my voice will definitely betray my thoughts.

"Maine? Bakit di ka na sumasagot? Ayaw mo na ba ako kausap?"

"Hindi naman. Ano ba? Just tired. Dami naming inikot today."

"I'm happy that you get to do that. Walk along the streets freely. I know you love that."

"I wish the same for you, you know?"

"I know. Gusto ko din yun." You smiled softly then we were quiet for a few seconds probably lost in our own thoughts of our days in Como and Germany when we were free as birds.

"Masyado na tayong seryoso." You said. "Can you at least smile for me, Maine, or giggle? You have the best sounding laugh you know that? Yung sobrang saya, yung parang walang makakapigil, yung nakakahawa, yung tipong parang hihikain ka na." You chuckled and touched my face on your screen. "Like how you giggle when I rub my nose on your ear and tickle you w/ my stubble. Naaalala mo?"

"Stop. I'll call you next time. I'm tired."

"Meng..."

"RJ, please."

"I miss you."

"Tama na."

"Bakit?"

"You have to stop reminding me of things I never forgot."I sighed. "I miss you too."

"I miss us." You whispered and looked at me with eyes full of yearning.

"I miss us too but let's not talk about that now." I sighed. "We're still in on this, right? We still agree na ito ang tama?"

"Yes." You smiled and nodded. "We need this."

"Sometimes we need to get away to come back complete. Mas masaya kung kumpleto na di ba? Not two halves making a whole..."

"but two wholes becoming one." You said that last part with me then sighed. "Salamat sa pagbuo sa akin, Meng. Sana hayaan mong gawin ko din yun para sa'yo kaya lang di ko na alam ang gagawin ko para maging okay ang lahat sa'yo."

"Basta andiyan ka lang, RJ. Okay ako." I smiled.

"Andito lang ako. Andito ako palagi para sa'yo."

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