Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo? DATI (COMPLETED)

#JustFriends- Sunrise

Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo Ulit
Part 1

November 29, 2017:

I anxiously shifted my weight from one foot to the other and back over and over as I waited for you to answer the door. To say I was a nervous wreck was an understatement. I didn't know how you would react to me showing up at your door at that hour, it was just 4am, and this would have been my first visit to your place after we... after you... after... sigh... I couldn't even bring myself to say or think what happened.

What did happen? Did we break up? That would require us both consenting to the decision and I definitely am not in on that. Are we cooling off? Maybe. You needed space and I was willing to give it to you because I know in my heart that no matter what you and I will find our way back to each other to finally live our happy ever after.

At the moment though, I would like to be just your friend if that was the only way to keep you close to me.

I think my heart jumped and got lodged in my throat when I heard the door click and swing open. I instantly regret agreeing to being just friends.

Damn it, Nicomaine! You have to stop looking like that when you open the door to make this work.

As you stood there in your oversized white shirt, boyleg shorts and messy bun, looking at me with your drowsy doe-eyes, my entire body was surged with the sudden need to taste your luscious lips.

I was motionless as I gaped at you longer than I intended and an awkward silence filled the space between us until you broke the silence with your adorable purring yawn.

That pulled the edges of my mouth into a wide grin and made me chuckle.

Nicomaine, you have to stop being cute too.

"Tawa ka diyan. RJ, ang aga mo!" You complained as you stepped to the side to allow me to step inside your unit.

"I think I'm just in time. May dala akong food and coffee. We can have breakfast in your balcony and watch the sunrise." I smiled. "Friends do that, right? Ginagawa din natin yun noon nung friends pa lang tayo."

You rolled your eyes at me and sighed. "Fine. Come in." You snickered.

You were laughing, given that it was suppressed, it was still the most wonderful sound I've heard in a while. I missed that.

I took a step forward then towards to give you a quick hug and a peck on the cheek. When I realized what I just did, I found myself staring deep into your brown eyes, with one arm around your waist and our faces a few centimeters from each other. I leaned forward, inching my lips towards yours, our hearts beating wildly and our breaths raspy as our lips moved closer and closer and...

You suddenly pushed me away and turned your back against me. "What are you doing?"

"Sorry, Maine." I sighed, mentally smacking myself on the head. "Force of habit."

"You should leave." You whispered with your back against me.

"No." I answered adamantly.

"RJ, please..."

"No, Maine, please. Please, let's just have breakfast." I begged. "I promise that won't happen again." I told you but we both know that was a lie because I will always want to kiss you.

"Okay." You sighed and walked towards the balcony where I followed you after locking the door behind me.

You sat on the bench against the wall just as the dawn started to break the night sky. I took a seat beside you and quietly unpacked the food then placed the sandwiches and coffee on the table beside it.

Not a single word was said between us as we watched the orange and pink colors of sunrise paint the heavens until the yellow sun brightened the blue sky.

"New day. New hope. Fresh chance to make life better." I smiled as I stared at the beautiful view in front of us. "That's the reason why this is our favorite time of the day, di ba? Kaya we love watching the sunrise?"

You did not answer but I could feel your eyes on me. I slowly turned to meet your gaze and found a familiar spark, it was but a flicker but it was there. There was hope and joy and love in that flicker and I was relieved to find it. My stare instinctively drop on your lips then back to your eyes then on your lips again as I felt your breath getting warmer and warmer on my skin.

I watched your eyes and found that they were making the same movement, my eyes to my lips and back as your face inched closer to mine. Closer and closer.

I closed my eyes as your lips were almost touching mine. "Maine..." I whispered. "Love..."

You promptly stood up when you heard me call you that and started to walk away again but I caught your wrist to stop you.

"Mali. I should have never agreed to this." You said.

I stood up and turned you around to face me. "Bakit, Maine? Anong mali? Anong mali sa mahal kita at alam kong mahal mo ako? Anong mali sa pagbigyan natin to?"

"Because we agreed to be just friends di ba? Yun lang. Yun lang tayo." You said as you twisted your hand away but I held on to it, firmly but still careful not to hurt you.

"Maine, stop fighting this."

"I'm not fighting anything dahil wala naman dapat talaga. Tama na to. Let's not do this anymore."

"Really? Sige nga. Tell me you don't feel it. Tell me you don't want to kiss me right now. Tell me you don't want to wrap your arms around me and hold me close as our lips meld together. Tell me!" I demanded as I stood merely inches away.

My eyebrows furrowed and my pursed lips caused the dimple on my left cheek to show.

We stood so close to each other that I knew you could almost feel my heartbeat if only your own heart wasn't thundering inside your chest.

We stood so close to each other that my scent and warmth filled your space and seeped through your very core.

I stood so close that my breath was upon your lips as we stared at each other. Me, furious when you said you wanted to end things. You, uncertain and hurt.

"But... we're..." You paused, not quite able to continue. "Just... Friends." You mumbled and looked down.

I sighed, stepped closer, lifted your chin with my thumb and gazed into your eyes. "Say that again." I whispered.

You couldn't, you kissed me.

Slowly, deeply, gently, you kissed me as your arms wrap around my neck and mine around your waist.

You pulled away with a gasp, pushing me and placing a hand over your lips as tears filled your eyes and you shook you head, shocked as I was with what happened.

"Y-you have to leave. Now." You sobbed.

"Maine..."

"Please..." You begged.

I nodded. "Okay. Pero babalik ako."

"No. You shouldn't. This won't work." You said.

"No. You can't make me stop, Maine. I will keep coming back until you stop pushing me away."

"RJ, please. Tama na."

"Oo. Tama na talaga. Tama na!" I said firmly as I held your hands in mine. "Maine, I listened to you. Pinagbigyan kita sa gusto mo. Ngayon ikaw naman ang makikinig."

You looked at me and quietly nodded.

I sighed and gently held your shoulders. "You said you can't not have me in your life. We both know ganoon din ako. Kaya please. Let's try to make this just friends thing work. I want to be here for you gaya ng dati, okay?"

You nodded again. "Okay." You answered.

"Tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow."

With that assurance, I gently kissed your forehead and left.

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Unbeta'ed and not proofread. Thank you for reading.