melted

for some reason you want to hug me

you are so different sometimes.

when the phone landed facedown and my secret was safe with you, you laughed and so did i, and we both knew something nobody else did about myself, you were surprised, and i was trusting, because you understand.

when you kissed her on the stage last night i covered my ears, we all did, but i kept watching because i was proud of you, and i reminded you of how amazing of an actor you were, even though the words didn't come out quite right, you were thankful, and i was relieved, because you understand.

when you showed us magic tricks on the hill, you planned all day for a smooth transition, and it went exactly the way you planned, and seventy six trombones applauded you with a fanfare of your own, and you showed me what button to push to become a magician like you, you were diligent, and i was overjoyed, because you understand.

when i gave you your secret santa christmas present five months late, wrapped up nicely in a locker that i forgot about, and you opened it and applauded my mother's gift wrapping skills with that showman's voice, you were happy, and i was glad, because you understand.

when you were hugging everyone who came up the stairs, as a large teddy bear would in situations such as these, and you came to me and hesitated, and you gave me a high five and smiled, and you apologized for almost crossing a boundary, you were careful, and i was thankful, because you understand.

you are so different yet so you, and i am astounded, because i am starting to understand.