melted

invasive species

when your sweet invisibility
drapes itself over my shoulders
a sweater in straight jacket weather
i assume i was born to love you.
how stupid we were then, with our dance, me chasing your coattails and you awkwardly being perfect to and fro, to and for them.
you seem to have no sympathy for the weak. i dive into every danger headfirst and strike gold. it hurts, but it is worth it. you are steadfast in pursuit, a blunt blade of kind at your side. i stay a stride behind you but we always find ourselves face to face. it feels as if we were written for it. i have written myself into a corner, being stabbed by piercing phrases that cut through the hatred i strap to my chest. how stupid i am now, tripping over myself in a love song i penned as you close in. i want to be closer to you, and so i draw you close in stick figure realism, still unable to capture your smile. insanity and genius are one and the same as we kiss and i melt like the mint chocolate you saved in your pocket for our meeting. every sample and second of you is an unbridled symphony i want to record and have on repeat, and i repeat myself, telling you i like you, i like you, i like you so much that if you dislike me i might go into anaphylactic shock, i like you so much that the endless permutations of what you might say keep me awake at dawn, i like you so much that i feel the lovely arrows you send take root in my chest and blossom. they take over my lungs, and the sickness travels up to my head, where i get high off the air that you breathe. i cheer for your stage, drunk on your name, inebriated by the spark in your eyes, wasting away.
i was a smart girl, and you are a smart boy. symbiosis, i said. i lied.