melted

was this what she meant

i've never considered myself to be ordinary
however i am more ordinary
than i give myself credit for being
i am part of the inhabitants of the earth
without even lifting a finger, i am suddenly
everything and nothing, altogether
everything and nothing, the world cheers
for there is another angel flying above our heads
perhaps she is there too
the girl who could've been me, exactly like me
an entirely different person, altogether
an entirely different person, i fear that
i worry all too much but not enough
and i am too nonchalantly terrified
of all that surrounds me
from what i once was to what i am now, i am
a reinvention, altogether
a reinvention, descent into the unknown
i cannot see but two feet ahead of me
my vision perfectly normal, the smog is fogging
my brain, glasses cloudy
i hyperventilate, drinking faster, until the last drop
an existence, altogether
an existence, i suppose
is something we all take for granted
that others wish for
to be heard, they do not see that
they, the subjects, are acknowledged
she was not given the choice
to be denied of an existence
that was originally supposed to be hers
i am more ordinary than i thought
considering i am alive
was this what she meant
saying that i was lucky?