melted

the replacement mom friend

she is not around
(but she is always around)
and i feel as if it's my duty
because i was one
but such a long time ago
i fall back into the shadows.

we are not together
within the tumultuous darkness
that is more vivid than the
bright red lips she fears to own
are already hers, she is colour itself,
and i wish to be alike.

i am not proud of you,
for that is her job,
but i am proud for you
and for her
and for everyone in between
because you deserve the world
and you deserve that girl too.

you are not for us,
(lovely, you are for the universe)
and it is your glory that shines
you are the sun i seek
and yearn all
to believe in
your magic in the life
of a small yet kindred soul.

they are not mine,
and yet i choose to believe they are
just for a moment
and i am in zeroes
of competition and of success
and i hope and pray
that when you are older
and i am older than you are now
that we'll remember each other.