melted

a snow date for two

it's cold outside
and the window condenses
seeping snow into all my memories of today.
i stay inside, covering my head
a blanket's respite, for one.
waiting for an arrival
turns me into a child
socks in the freezer, pajamas inside out
but i pray for warmth to keep me home.
the freezing wind is nothing
in direct comparison to him,
so cold yet so hot
i shiver and swelter
i sweat, my nervous system flooded
a deluge of emotion cascades
from the cold showers i will never take.
i have always run warm
but lately life seems to have taken control of the thermostat.
so how can i refuse he who reigns over flame?
how am i supposed to restrain the lava flow of feelings that melts through the brain freeze?
i concede.