Tom Holland Imagines

I'm Not Her 2 // Peter Parker {Republished}

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One simple kiss can change everything, depending on who it's with it can be something beautiful or a disaster. Pete and I have been dating for a year now. Things were honestly great, we had fun, everyone loved us together, but I knew I didn't fully have his heart; because I always got this weird feeling in my stomach whenever we had so much fun. It was as if he wished he was having fun with someone else...

"Y/n wanna go see the city lights later tonight when I go on my watch?"

I looked over at Peter and gave him a nod, "sure."

Peter looked at me and made his way towards me. I looked up at him and cupped his face, I was head over heels for this boy but I knew he wasn't head over heels for me. And knowing that always gave me mixed feelings.

I leaned up and gave him a gentle kiss. He returned the kiss by cupping my face and pulling me closer.

Smiling into the kiss, I pulled away and mumbled, "I love you Pete."

He chuckled and nodded, "I know.. love you too."

I bit my lip and pulled away. There were times where Peter would tell me he loved me back, but on days he didn't. It made me notice that he didn't really love me in that way. Not gonna lie I always imagined my partner to be little obsessed with me.

"I should get going." I told my boyfriend as I pushed myself away from him to my stuff. Peter chuckled and crossed his arms.

"You don't wanna stay?"

"Nope!" I grabbed my bag and shoved my books into it, "I got to start dinner, finish my homework and do other stuff."

I turned to face him and gave him a fake smile, "see you tonight ok?"

Peter nodded and made his way towards me but I acted as if I didn't notice and quickly left his room. Loving this kid sometimes scared me and would make me sad because I didn't want to loose him.

When I got home, I did start doing dinner because I knew Peter's spidey senses figured I was lying, so he sent his little spider to check up on me. Ever since what happened with Gwen, Peter did everything to make sure I was ok, not really sure why. Lesson learned I guess, he still tries to protect me the best he can and that might be because he feels guilty.

After dinner, I started to work on my homework. I finished that quickly and decided to change. I didn't change into anything risque since I still knew his little spider was watching me, but I just changed into some black leggings, a grey long sleeve shirt and a brown jacket with brown ankle boots. After I finished getting dressed—and I literally mean after I finished—a knock was at my window. I looked over and playfully but mostly annoyed, rolled my eyes and went over to open the window.

"Hello Spider-boy." I said with a sigh but still managed to put a smirk on my face.

Peter was wearing his Spider-Man suit, his eyes changed showing me that he was smirking under the mask.

"I don't know if you know, but I have my-... someone coming to get me."

I bit my lip and mentally cursed myself. Noticing that things aren't the same as they use to be, makes me uncomfortable to say things I would normally be fine saying.

"Mind if I take you away for a bit?" Peter asked leaning against my window. I looked around my room and shrugged, "I guess my friend won't mind."

I slowly started to step outside of my window to the balcony and Peter smiled.

"Perfect."

He quickly grabbed me by the waist and the next thing I knew we were swinging building to building, enjoying the view of the city lights and cars. I was really going to miss this.

Peter placed me down on top of a roof and I sighed, but I quickly put a smile on my face so Peter wouldn't notice I was upset. I hated being upset, it made me feel selfish... it made me feel like I was being annoying and that if someone else sensed I was sad... they'd think I'm overdramatic or something.

"You look good." Peter said, taking off his mask.

I shrugged and crossed my arms together since tonight was a cold night, "I look alright."

Peter looked at me for a second before looking out at the city lights and then back at me.

"Are you o-"

"I'm great!"

Peter pursed his lips and nodded. I walked over to the edge of the roof and just stared at the lights. I wanted to be here but at the same time... I wanted to be in my bed. Alone.

"I'm never gonna get over how amazing this looks." I said softly. I felt Peter come up behind me and place a hand on my lower back.

"I know me too."

"I love you Pete.." I said as I turned to face him. Peter stared at me and placed his free hand on my cheek.

"I love you too."

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"Ned don't do it!" I yelled at my friend with a smile. Peter dared him to shove his face in a cake and then run off, but I didn't want him too because 1) we are in a mall, 2) he needs to clean his face, and 3) Ned doesn't like to run.

"Oh c'mon Y/n let him shove his face in the cake." Michelle said.

I looked at Peter and he raised an eyebrow at me while smiling. I rolled my eyes and waved my hand at Ned.

"Go ahead."

Ned shoved his face in the cake and ran off. We all busted out laughing, because the manager stared at Ned in shock but also because after realizing what Ned did. He chased after him.

After finding Ned, we all went to Peter's house and decided to hang there and eat pizza. We all gathered around the living room, laughing, eating, enjoying the movies we were watching. We were having a good time.

"Ok ok but can we talk about how funny it was when the Manager ran after Ned and Ned was running down the stairs?!" Peter cracked up.

We laughed and gave him a nod.

"Yeah it was."

I stood up from my spot and sighed, "I'm gonna go get a drink, any of you want one?"

"I do! A coke please." Peter smiled. I gave him a nod again and pecked his lips.

"Of course babe." I said as I walked off to the kitchen.

"Thank you Gwen, I love you."

I stopped my tracks and I could hear everyone go silent. Peter quickly got up from the couch and stared at me with wide eyes.

"Oh my god.. Y/n... I-I'm so sorry.. it just slipped out I-I didn't mean t-"

"I knew it."

"What?"

"I knew it." My eyes began to tear up, but I knew crying was pointless because it wasn't going to change anything, "I knew she was still around and I was stupid enough to stay with you."

Peter made his way towards me but I stepped back. I knew he still loved her and even though I knew, I stayed... I stayed because I was in love with the idea of being his girlfriend, but I guess that idea was no longer going to work.

"Y/n please.. I'm sorry it just slipped out... you know how much I miss her."

"I am not her Pete... I know how much you love and miss her but you letting yourself call me Gwen? I am not a dead girl. I am here with you."

"I'm sorry.." Peter whispered.

I nodded my head and took a deep breathe, "Yeah." I looked around the kitchen and living room and started to grab my stuff.

"Where are you going?"

"Home." And with that I walked out of his apartment, taking my love for him with me.