Tom Holland Imagines

Why Her? 2 // Peter Parker {Republished}

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A month has passed by since Y/n put me in my place and I've been slightly upset about it. Ned would be talking to me about something casual and then his voice would slowly fade as Y/n would walk past by us and I'll admit I would just stare, but that's all I've done lately. I would stare at her all the time, in our class, at lunch, even when she's out on her balcony.

I miss her like crazy, she's my best friend and if only I figured this out sooner maybe something more.

"Ned I have to talk to her." I told him as I stared at Y/n who was sitting next to Michelle. Ned looked at me as if I was crazy.

"Dude no you can't she's pissed at you!"

"It's been a month man and I miss her, I miss her sitting in front of us, I miss her coming up to us when we are at my locker, I just miss her man I mean what she said. She's right."

Ned looked back at Y/n and sighed, "do you love her?"

I didn't say anything. If I'm being honest here I haven't really thought of that if I loved her or not. I mean yeah I love her she's my best friend but as anything more? Did I love her in that way? Do I wanna be with her in that way? I don't know.

"I don't know Ned .. I mean all I thought was how Y/n was right and that I miss her."

Ned nodded his head slowly and gave my shoulder a pat, "listen, maybe this whole distant thing is good for the both of you, she needs times and clearly you do to."

I looked back at Y/n who had a smile plastered all over her face and my heart felt warm, I could hear her laughs so clearly in my head. It was contagious. She was beautiful.

When I went home, May would always ask me if Y/n and I were back on speaking terms, and every answer she would get was a 'no.'

"You need to talk to her!" May said as she followed me into my room.

"Why? She needs space! I know how you women get."

"Excuse me? Listen here mister some of us ladies want you boys to grow a pair and have courage, so grow some balls Peter and talk to her!"

Surprised, I watched May walk out my room and close my door. I sat down on my bed and thought 'maybe she's right?'

Once deciding what I was gonna do I quickly dressed into my Spiderman suit and webbed my way towards Y/n's apartment. Maybe I can make things right again.

I jumped into Y/n's balcony and I could see her sitting on her bed all stressed out. Has she been like this the whole time? Taking a deep breathe, I slightly knocked on her window and she jumped. That was cute.

Y/n made her way towards the window and slide it open.

"How do you know where I live?" She asked slightly blocking her window.

"I saw you walking and took an interest."

Y/n furrowed her eyebrows and then she calmed down, "can I talk to you?" I asked slightly nervous.

"Why?" She asked.

"Just please? Can I come inside?"

Y/n hesitated for a second and then moved aside so I can make my way in her room, when I got inside I softly smiled. I missed the smell of her room.

"What do you want? Shouldn't you be saving people tonight?"

I slowly turned over to look at Y/n and then pulled off my mask. Her face fell and then held an angry expression.

"What the fuck?!"

I quickly covered her mouth and gave her a pleading look, "shh please let me explain!"

Y/n pushed my hand off her mouth and shook her head, "no get out!"

"Y/n!"

"Get out Peter!"

"Y/n!"

"Get out!"

"Y/n!"

"Get. Out!"

"I miss you!"

Her face softened at my words and her body seemed to relax.

"Please let me explain." I said in a low voice and she pursed her lips and nodded.

"Ok yes I am Spider-Man and I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't value you as much and I'm sorry for being such a douche I really am. I know Liz wasn't the best and I know now why you didn't get why I liked her and maybe you were right, maybe I did like her because of her looks and her popularity but. I love you and miss you and I was dumb to not see that."

I could hear Y/n's breath hitch and if I were her right now. I'd probably hear my heart beat in my ears. My Spidey senses began to make me feel nervous because generally I didn't like it when Y/n got nervous.

"Please say something." I whispered and looked in her eyes, "please."

Y/n opened her mouth to say something but closed it and then opened it again.

"I can't."

My heart broke.

"You can't?"

"I can't .. I can't love you like I did before Peter, I just can't .. you clearly love her."

I quickly shook my head and cupped her face, "no Y/n I don't! trust me!"

Y/n sadly smiled at me and grabbed onto my hands, "you wanna know how I know your lying to me?"

I was silent.

"Because you're eyes tell a different story when you talk about her and then when you talk about me."

A tear fell.

I pulled away from her and scoffed. Now I was tearing up.

"So you are going to judge me by the way my eyes look?!"

Y/n stood by her window and shook her head, "no Peter that's not what I'm saying. I don't want to be with someone who can't look at me the way I look at them! I want someone to look at me like I'm their world! ... like I mean something."

"You do mean something to me!" I said.

Y/n nodded her head slowly and let her tears flow down her cheeks, "yeah." She whispered with her voice cracking a little, "I do mean something to you ... but as friend .. a best friend."

I shook my head and sniffed, "I can't believe I came here for this." I mumbled.

Y/n furrowed her eyebrows, "then why did you?"

"Because you opened up to me! I thought for a month while you ignored me! Gathered my thoughts and came here and now you don't want me anymore?"

"I'm not easy to get Parker! I know what I want and what I want is for my Peter to love me and only me not the other girl in his mind, especially when the girl is named Liz Allen."

I looked at her with a sad look and then shook my head.

"Then why me?"

Y/n closed her mouth and her bottom lip began to tremble. I walked towards the window and started to stepped out.

"Pete please don't go." Y/n said, I put on my mask and took a deep breathe.

"I gotta check the neighborhood .. bye Y/n."