Tom Holland Imagines

After A Baby // Tom Holland

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Requested by: @meganlovesshawnyboi

I studied myself in the full body mirror. I turn sides, pinched my skin, trailed my fingers on the places I was most insecure. When you have a baby it's the most beautiful thing but you body doesn't go back to being this tight thing. You loosen up.

I thought that after I had Lilia, I was going to love my body because I carried the most beautiful thing. I thought I wasn't going to be insecure and I wasn't at first. When I got out of the hospital, I thought I looked good. A few day went by and I didn't even look myself in the mirror as I had a child to take care and was constantly tired. When I did, my walls fell down.

I haven't told Tom, I didn't feel the need like I had too since we weren't having any sex due to the fact that I couldn't. Yet it's been 4 months and I have been ok the last 3.

"Sweetheart?" Tom called out.

I quickly grabbed my oversized sweater and put it on. When I started to feel insecure I bought a lot of cute winter sweaters.

"Hey baby welcome home." I sighed as I put on a smile. I reached out to him and pulled him in for a hug.

"Where's Lilia?" He asked when he pulled away a little to look at me.

"Sleeping, how were the interviews?"

"Good, thank you for asking." Tom grinned. I smiled and walked into the kitchen to start making dinner.

"How was your day?"

"Well Lil let me finish half of the music for the musical and she just played and Tess looked after her."

Tom chuckled, "good I'm glad you got half of your work done and," he leaned down when Tessa made her way to him, "for Tes looking after my little girl."

I smiled and we suddenly heard soft cries come from the baby motor. I frowned and was about to go get Lilia but Tom stood up and said he would get her. I smiled and let him, I love seeing him hold her. She gets very peaceful when she's with her dad.

"Munchkin knew her daddy was home." Tom cooed as his daughter was cuddled up in his arms.

"She sure does when she wants him to put her to bed."

Tom groaned a little, "oh right I keep forgetting that."

I laughed as I put the vegetables in a pot. Tom hanged out with Lil and I made dinner.

I made Lilia a bottle and laid her in her playpen while putting a pillow under her head and blankets under her bottle to support it. I sat down next to Tom once I placed his food in front of him.

"Thanks darling this smells really good."

I smiled and enjoyed my food while I every once and while checked on Lilia. After dinner, Tom burped our daughter and played with her until it was her bed time.

I finished washing my body and was now moisturizing and putting on my pjs. Tom walked in our room and slightly closed our door, making his way towards me. He placed his hands on my waist and kissed my shoulder.

"Now it's you and me." He said raspily.

My heart began to beat fast and not because I was getting heated.

"Is it rude of me to ask for sex?" He asked, kissing my neck.

"No of course not... I just..."

Tom stopped.

"You just what doll?"

I closed my mouth and looked down as I played with my wedding ring.

"It's ok darling you can tell me."

I looked up at his face and said the truth.

"I feel insecure Tom.. with my body. I thought I wasn't going to be insecure once I had Lilia but one day I looked in the mirror and felt horrible."

Tom frowned and sat us down on the foot of the bed, "baby why didn't you tell me?"

"We weren't having sex-"

"But do you realize for how long you kept this from me? I could have been there to help you and all this time you felt this way about yourself."

I frowned even more, "I didn't know how to say it."

Tom sighed and pulled me close. He held me and kissed my forehead, "it's ok darling, better late then never."

I smiled softly and looked at him. He smiled back.

"Whatever you want to do, we'll do it together. We can take all the time you need." He reassured.