Tom Holland Imagines

My Love, My Life // Tom Holland

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Waiting on a single couch for my boyfriend of one year with a cup of tea in my hand made the warming house feel cold and empty. I had a blanket keeping me warm across my lap and outside I could hear the hard raindrops falling on top of my house and on to the ground. I loved the rain but right now I hated it.

"Hahaha! I'll see you guys tomorrow then!" I heard Tom's voice say. He walked in through the front door and the side of his body was facing me because he was waving at his mates.

I loved the smile he had on his face but I hated the fact he had it on when he wasn't with me. Tom finally closed the door and once he walked in the living room, he stopped his tracks when he saw me sitting on the single couch with my blanket and cup of tea.

"Why are up at this hour? It's 3 am in the morning."

I shrugged, "it's hard to sleep when the person I love is out on the hours he should be using to sleep."

Tom stayed quiet and placed his hands inside his front pockets. He didn't speak a word so I did.

"How was your night?" I asked with a sigh.

"Fine."

I slowly nodded my head. Fine? All he had to say was fine? He couldn't give me a full sentence?

"I want to talk to you," he said softly.

I raised my eyebrows, "oh wow finally?"

Tom pursed his lips and sat down in front of me, "I don't think we should keep going on with this relationship love... I'm always out, I'm always working, I don't touch you the same way I use to... hell, I don't even remember the last time I touched you."

I do.

All I did was stare at the ground when Tom spoke those words I didn't want to hear but was bound too, "We should break up and move on. I barely have time for you and I rather us end it now than keep this going and we both end up even more hurt."

I gave him a nod and took a sip of my tea, I was surprisingly calm in this situation but I knew very well that deep down I was screaming, crying, and throwing things around from pain. Tom stood up from the couch and made his way over to me, making me pull up my blanket even higher. He leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on my forehead before speaking.

"I'll see you later darling."

Tom walked out the front door and I heard him start his car. Once I heard it drive off I sat still for a good minute before walking into my now own bedroom towards my body mirror. I bit the inside of my lip and looked at my body. I was so lonely, I was all sad deep down, I was all alone.

Lifting up my shirt and turning to the side a bit, I was now showing my three month bump.

I wasn't alone, I had my baby.

"Guess it's just you and me baby."

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My pregnancy was a little harsh, being all alone with a big belly really hurt to do a lot of things. Every once an old lady would come by and help. It meant a lot to me since I couldn't really do anything.

Walking... well wobbling out of my bedroom, I made me way towards the kitchen with a plate on my hand and I suddenly felt a sharp pain go through me making me drop my plate and yelp in pain.

"Oh!" I groaned, placing a hand on my back. Waiting for the pain to go through, I slowly made my way towards the house phone and dialed the old lady's number.

"Hello?"

"Gina?, I think the baby is coming."

I heard her gasp loudly on the side of the phone, "oh dear! I-I'm on my way!"

I hanged up the phone and once I did another sharp pain went through me, making me scream and lean against the couch. I remember the breathing techniques Gina and the midwife taught me so I quickly began to do so.

After a good 15 minutes, Gina came bursting into my house with a panic look. I could feel her eyes landing on my sweaty body that was hunched over the couch.

"Darling you need to move around." She said, massaging small circles on my lower back.

I gave her a nod and slowly stood up straight, walking around with a pain face. Every once and a while I'd stop and wince, making Gina encourage me to keep going. I held to her hand, I yelled and groaned in pain, I was waiting for the midwife to come but since they are far from where I live, it was taking a while.

"I think it's time love." Gina said in my ear while rubbing my shoulders. I swallowed harshly and made my way towards the bed. I slowly laid down and we saw the midwife was no where to be seen so Gina quickly went to the bathroom to grab a bowl of cold water and a rag to place on my head.

Gina took off her cardigan and gave me a look, "push Y/n."

Terrified I gripped the blankets under me and began to push, leaning forward as I do so. I could hear my screams and Gina's encouragements. The birthing seemed forever to me, all I did was keep my eyes shut as I took deep breaths and kept leaning forward to push. I was in pain but I knew what was coming after this was going to be special.

"One more push!" Gina yelled.

I took a deep breath and screamed as I pushed, I felt bad for the people outside. Suddenly I felt a heavy weight off me and it felt magical, although I was sweaty and sticky and hot I felt relaxed and then I heard a baby's cry. I looked over at Gina and she wrapped my baby in a small blanket, staring in awe. She gently handed me my child and I began to cry tears of happiness.

She was beautiful.

The midwife suddenly came in and I know Gina was scolding at her and yelling at her to take care of me because I had just given birth. I didn't care though, all voices were muffled to me. All I focused on was my daughter who was staring up at me.

That night Gina left to pack a few clothes since she was going to stay at my house to help me out. The whole time she left I just held my daughter, fed her when she needed to be fed, loving her when she needed me to hold her, staring at her to study her beautiful features. She was my light and world, she is my everything and she's only a few hours old.

"I've never felt this strong
I'm invincible, how could this go wrong? No, here, here's where we belong I see a road ahead I never thought I would dare to tread." I sang softly to my little girl. Her eyes staring into mine not breaking away for one bit, I already knew she was smart.

"Like an image passing by my love, my life in the mirror of your eyes my love, my life I can see it all so clearly all I love so dearly images passing by like reflections of your mind my love, my life

She had her father's hair, his ears, his smile, and she had my lips, my eyes, and my nose. She was absolutely beautiful.

"But I know I don't possess you with all my heart, God bless you, you will be my love and my life you're my one and only."

I leaned down and gently kissed her forehead. I was all alone, I had Gina but really I was going to take care of my girl all by myself. And I wasn't scared.

"Victoria." I whispered to her, "that's your name pretty girl."

You're my one and only