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When you grow old, like around your mid 20's/early 30's old. Most people decided to get married, settle down and have kids. That's what my mother always taught me, to get married and have kids by the time you're in your 30's because once you hit them, some parts of you stop working or you get real sick. Me, being the opened hearted person I am. I always wanted to get married at a young age, like get married at age 25 and have kids after my wedding. That's what I wanted. My mother always supported me on that, she said the younger I have my kids, the longer she gets to spend time with my grandchildren. She doesn't get any younger you know.
During my senior year of college I met this guy, his name was Tom Holland. He was such a sweetheart, always made jokes, always made people have a good laugh, was so kind and nice to others. He was very social too which is great considering what he wants to do after College, which is act.
When we first started going out on dates, I let him know I wasn't easy going. That I was hard to impress and he liked that about me. He said he loved girls with independence because it shows how strong and confident they are and I was exactly that.
"And my brother Paddy-oh my gosh he's the cutest thing ever- anyways my brother. We loved to fight with each other, like pretend and when we first started doing that. It was when he was younger, he looked so adorable and-"
"I'm so sorry to interrupt you Tom but.. I wanna know where we stand," I said, slightly narrowing my eyes a bit, "because I can't be with someone knowing they'll break my heart after a few months of dating or a year. We're almost twenty-one, close to twenty-two and by that close to twenty-three and by the time I reach twenty-five I already want to have a future with someone, have kids. I've had a few love affairs and none really stuck with me until I met you. You're you, you're kind, you're talented, you're a great soul, an amazing person and I really like that about you. I would really like us to be something more but if you can't or you're not ready. Then I'm sorry I can't be with you. We're almost out of college, meaning we're almost close to settling down so. It's up to you, if not that's fine, I'm out the door." I said, with an amused smile on my face.
Tom's face fell and his eyes started glistening like a set of cat's eyes widened, making them look so cute! A small smile appeared on Tom's face and the next I knew, I was meeting his parents to show them the engagement ring he bought me. Yeah we dated for 9 months and after 9 months he proposed but I didn't care, I loved that he thought the same way I did. He wanted a family too. A wife.
A year later, we were married. That year he filmed his big break, Spider-Man Homecoming. The first few months of our marriage were great, but I began to change. I was no longer the strong independent girl Tom fell in love with. Everyday I wanted to do whatever he wanted; if he wanted to go see a certain movie, we'd see that movie. If he wanted Chinese food, we got Chinese food, if he wanted to be by himself, he got his alone time. It was never what I wanted because I was to busy focusing on what he wanted. I knew it was starting to affect our marriage, Tom tried doing things I wanted to do but I kept pushing to do things he wanted to do. So I decided to get pregnant. When I got pregnant, I thought things were going to get better, obviously it didn't. It was fine at first because I was stressed and tired from taking care of our baby girl, but when I got the hang of it. I was back to insisting we do whatever Tom wanted.
