Heartbreak Girl

HG49. Eighteenth Rose

[If you have Michael Buble's Hold On, play it repeatedly. It will help you in finishing this chapter.]

Chapter Forty Nine.

Ever felt that tingling feeling on the pit of your stomach? Like you wanna throw up, you wanna runaway. When anxiety attacks you, and you wanna back out, you wanna give up.

When they say butterflies on my stomach, it does not always mean that you're excited or happy or in love. In my situation, these stupid butterflies are giving me anxiety and distress.

"Uhh, hi." I awkwardly stated looking at thr ground.

I felt uneasy as he walked towards me.

"May I have this dance?" tanong niya at ibinigay sa akin yung rose.

I awkwardly took it from his hand and took a step forward.

Both of his hands went to my waist.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang ikikilos ko sa I awkwardly stood and looked sidewards.

"Ang mga kamay mo, dapat nandito." sabi niya at hinawakan ang mga kamay ko tapos nilagay niya sa balikat niya.

The next things he did surprised me. He pulled me close by waist. Magkahawak yung kamay niya sa likod ko, at halos magkadikit na ang mga katawan namin.

"Can you please look at me?" tanong niya.

Umiling ako, nakatingin lang ako sa side. Baka magkastiff neck na ako neto.

Tinanggal niya yung isang kamay niya sa likod ko at hinawakan ang pisngi ko. He forced me to look at him.

"Kahit ngayon lang, please?" he pleaded. I nodded and looked at him.

"Happy birthday, Kath." sabi niya. "Paano ba 'yan, hindi sweet ang last dance mo sa debut mo. Walang music eh."

"Okay lang." sabi ko.

We started to sway along the sound of our heartbeats and breathing under the moonlight.

"Ayan, nagtitipid ka na naman sa mga salita mo." he teased.

I smiled at him, a genuine and real smile.

"Kumusta yung program? Sayang, hindi ako nakanood." sabi niya.

"Okay naman. It's perfect, everything was planned behind my back. Unexpected nga eh, ang sabi ko kay Daddy dinner lang kasi yun lang naman talaga ang gusto ko. But Daddy really loves me. And I'm happy na yung mga nasa loob are the people who are really important to me. Astig yung mga birthday messages nila. Imagine, umiyak si Aria in public. That's a first." I laughed a little. "But my eighteen roses is unanticipated."

"No one invited me, wala ngang nagsabi na nagpadebut ka pala eh." sabi niya.

"Eh paano ka nakarating dito?" tanong ko.

"The universe has its own ways." sagot niya.

"Uhm, bakit ka nandito?" tanong ko. DJ twirled me around, I'm facing the fountain now. Nakatalikod ako sa kanya.

He pulled me closer. Inilagay niya yung chin niya sa balikat ko.

"I don't know. I'm stupid." sabi niya.

We were still swaying, as if my music.

"Something's telling me it might be you... all of my life. Hmmm, hmm, hm, hm.. Hmm, hmmm, hm, hm.." he hummed.