Fine Line Between Love and Hate | Dan x Reader High School

That Day is Today

Hi, I know I usually don't post this today, but you guys wanted it soooooooo.

Here you go.

You're going to hate me, I promise.

Enjoy~

(y/n)'s POV

It was a casual place so I just pulled on my black skinnys and a sweater. I looked at myself in the mirror and noticed I looked rather hollow. It was a harrowing sight to say the least. I looked rather exhausted, though I had received a lot of sleep lately and drained. Grace and Dan and...Caspar were taking the energy out of me, literally. I gently place my hands on my hips and paced for a minute before heading downstairs.

I met up with Caspar at the restaurant, and the waiter seated us almost instantly. We were placed in a booth and I sat across from him. I noticed the door open and a fluff of brown hair came in. Dan and Grace came into view and of course they were seated directly next to us.

"Oh lord." Caspar said, shifting his water glass.

"I know. Why are they always around?" I asked, sipping my drink.

"Huh? Yeah. I don't know." Caspar said. I could tell he was distracted, but I honestly didn't want to focus on what was distracting him. We chatted, though it was rather one way, and ate. I looked up from my meal to see that Caspar was blatantly staring at her and she was staring back. Dan had gone to the bathroom or something and they were having some sort of conversation through their eyes. I watched his baby blue eyes shift, full of some sort of happiness.

"You lover her don't you." I said. I hadn't meant to say that, but I guess now was the time.

"Wha--no of course n--"

"Caspar." I said. He glanced over at her.

"I-I...I do." he said, a soft breath exhaled from his nose. "(y/n), I'm so sorry I never meant to--"

"It's fine. I get it. I just wish I hadn't wasted my time. You could've told me." I said. I held his hand. "Goodbye Caspar." I said, brushing my thumb over his hand. I left, the cold air burning my lungs. I walked a little ways down, kicking little stones along the sidewalk, the soft lights of the building around me giving everything an eerie light. I stopped at the part of the pavement in which Dan had asked to be my friend.

How great that worked out.

I plopped down rubbing my forehead to try and get rid of the ache residing there. I let a few solitary tears run down my face. Sure, not the most heart breaking break up, but it's hard not to cry. It still sucks. I sniffled and wiped away a tear, looking at the bustling downtown where I had just ended it. I felt a burning ache in my chest and all I wanted was to sob uncontrollably. I don't know why. I buried my frozen hands in between my knees to warm them, and watched the air fog at my breath through blurred eyes.

I feel so helpless right now.

Dan's POV

I headed back from the bathroom to see Caspar sitting in what was once my spot. I glanced over at his booth to see that (y/n) was gone.

"What are you doing?" I asked. Their hands retreated from each other and Caspar stood up.

"Look I just want to ex--" 

"No." I interrupted. "You're the worst. The actual worst. You steal my girlfriend and leave poor (y/n) to herself. No matter how okay she might seem, she's probably not. You know what, just enjoy Grace you fucking idiot and get away from me." I said, storming out of the restaurant. I can't believe him. I can't believe her.

And all I can think about is where (y/n) is. I continued along the path, heading towards home where I supposed she was. I noticed a crumpled figure resting on the pavement. (y/n). In the spot where she had forgiven me. Now it's all gone to hell.

I heard a soft sob as the figure glanced up, looking into the distance, eyes gleaming with tears in the darkness.

(y/n)'s POV

I placed my face in my hands again, the dark night swallowing me up. I felt a body sit next to mine, but I didn't look at them.

"(y/n)?"

Dan. I didn't answer and just stayed, looking out at the town in front of me. I felt a new set of tears prick my eyes, but I held them back.

"(y/n), please." 

I still didn't answer. Was he really expecting to come here for comfort, or to make up, or what ever the hell he wanted to do?

"I guess our dates left us for each other." he said. "That really sucks huh?" he said, chuckling.

"Are you SERIOUS?!" I screamed. "YEAH, IT DOES SUCK. IT SUCKS ASS AND YOU'RE NOT MAKING BETTER!!" I yelled, my voice disappearing into the darkness.

"(y/n), I'm sorry, just let me h--" he said, his arm reaching to drape over my shoulders.

"No!" I said, jerking his arm away. "Get away from me! You think you can just come here and be 'the hero' to comfort me or something. Start over or something. Get a second chance, but you already got one too many Dan!" I said.

"Please I o--"

"No. No you don't get any chance. You've wasted them. You waved her in my face, because you were so upset at the fact that maybe I was happy. You just can't stand to see me happy. Well her you go. I'm unhappy. HAPPY NOW?! Get the fuck away from me Howell. You haven't changed one bit." I said, standing up. I started walking away when he caught my arm.

"(y/n). Stop. Please." he said. I turned to face him and his hand slid down to take mine. I jerked it away, tears streaming down my face.

"No. Screw you." I said.

"(y/n), I know I messed up. I can't live with myself anymore. I feel so terrible for all I've done to you." he said.

"You feel terrible?! Join the fucking club. I've been club president for a while now." I said.

"Please. I'm sorry. And I know that dating Grace was a mistake and I shouldn't have bothered you with her when I knew you two didn't get along. I don't know what I was doing. I never meant to hurt you and I just want to help." he said. We both fell silent.

"No." I replied. Within in an instant my hand connected with his face.

"I promised myself that one day when you did something so terrible to me that I would slap the shit out of you for real, so you'd know what you'd done. That's today. I hate you Dan Howell." I turned and ran, leaving him standing alone, but that would never compare to how alone I felt whenever he was around.

And with that, that fine line was broken. Just like me.

GODDAMN. I BET YOU HATE ME RIGHT NOW.

:)

Stay awesome!

~Calymari