Fine Line Between Love and Hate | Dan x Reader High School

Good Practice for When You're Gone

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(y/n)'s POV

The next day was by far the worst day of my life. I had walked over to Phil's and told him the news of my moving and he was shocked into not talking for the next 20 minutes. We sat in the most uncomfortable silence until he tackled me in a hug, begging me not to go.

Zoe was worse. I drove over there and told her the news and she was sad until she realized I wouldn't be there through the rest of the divorce. She burst into tears and clung onto me, telling me we needed to video chat as soon as possible once I landed.

At least I had two of my friends still, but Dan was a goner.

After that weekend, Monday of that week was hell.

I walked into my first class, math with Dan, and sat down next to him. He didn't look at me, talk to me, even recognize my presence. I stared at the board with a pained look on my face, but he said nothing.

Was it really going to be like this?

Never talking to me again, just because I wouldn't be in the same country for a while?

He was supposed to be happy for me, not a jerk. He was supposed to take up every last ounce of me like he said. The class ended, and instead of walking me to the next, he tripped me outside the door, muttering bitch as he walked away. So that's how it is.

Back to square one.

I made my way to the next class where he ignored me too. Zoe just talked to me profusely to break the silence. At least she wanted to be around me.

The rest of the day was muttered hurtful words and glares, mostly ignoring me.

That's why I'm sat here in bed, crying.

I made the bad decision to go to Dan and knock on his door, just to see him say something to me. He opened the door, immediately going to close it again. I stopped it with my foot.

"Dan, why are you so mad at this? I know it's not ideal and it really hurts me to be away from you too, but this is ridiculous," I said.

"I'm not mad you're leaving. I'm mad, because you lied to me. I should've been with you every minute of every day until you left, starting with the beginning of the semester, but you didn't care to tell me."

"I didn't even know then! And it's hard enough now! I didn't want you to worry Dan."

"Well don't stress about me worrying now, because I don't care. Now get out."

"Dan s--"

"Get out and don't talk to me. It's good practice for when you're gone," he said, slamming the door. I stood there for a second before I teared up and started walking home.

This wasn't fair.

And it was like that for the next few days.

I remember walking into school Tuesday with my head down. I was almost late to math I didn't want to go. I sat down and placed my head down and away from Dan. Don't look at him. I didn't even try to speak to him, nor look at him, but I knew he was there.

Hating me.

I remember that Thursday staying home with Zoe and Phil, all of our parents letting us.

I remember that next Tuesday, my last week, thinking that the world was practically ending. I had to go, I'm not stupid.

Now it was Friday and I leave tomorrow morning.

Phil and Zoe were sat as I put the last finishing touches to my suitcases. My room, especially my closet looked quite empty and bare. I had taken down a lot of decor on my walls and other things I would need.

It looked so hollow.

"I'm going to miss you so much," Zoe said, resting her head on my leg. "Who is going to be my pillow?"

"Me too," Phil said, laying on the floor. "It's going to be way too weird without you."

"Yeah, I know," I said.

"Where is this school?" Zoe asked.

"Somewhere in New York, so the time difference isn't too bad, just not great with a whole ocean between us."

"You're going to America," Phil stated and that sort of seemed to sink in.

"Yeah, I am," I said, my heart pounding.

We spent the rest of the night reminiscing about the things we had done. 

"Remember Austin?"

"Of course I do Phil," I said, laughing.

"Yeah, I know but that was pretty epic, we totally busted him," he said.

"Oh my god, I remember when you used to like James, that's how we became friends," Zoe said.

"Yeah, yeah, I get it, my love life is very bad," I said, laying back.

"What about Dan?"

They both knew that Dan was mad at me, and I was sort of back at him. Most just depressed.

"I don't know Zoe, what about him?" I asked.

"Why haven't you dated him yet?"

"I don't know," I said and she just nodded. There was a long silence.

"I just made it awkward."

"Yeah you did."

"Shut up Phil."

"You shut up."

"Guys, both of you shut up," I interrupted and they both went silent.

"Want to go to sleep?" Zoe asked and I just nodded. I was a goner tomorrow morning.

"Yeah, let's."

Little short ik, but shshsh

~Calymari