Fine Line Between Love and Hate | Dan x Reader High School

People Can Change

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(y/n)'s POV

"Alright people, the musical is in a few days and I think we're prepared. So practice what you must while I work with some people." Mrs. V said, dismissing us. I glanced over at Dan whose eyes were focused in on his script. He always seemed so at peace when he was here, like I was. Drama club was like our safe place. My mind wandered back to auditions, with him, and how torturous they were. One ending up in me slapping him for his hands wandering during the scene. It makes me wonder how he's changed so much.

People always say that humans never change, and that it's just not possible. I used to abide by that thought religiously, using it as an excuse to make dealing with the difficult easier. I was difficult sometimes and that realization always got in the way. That maybe I haven't changed. That I haven't grown as much as everyone else.

People change. It's simple. If you saw someone from their childhood to adulthood, you'd realize that. You'd accept it. They change. It's not as if they still babble or yell about cooties, it's just that some change, or mature faster. That's what scares us.

Not the change itself, but how fast. When someone cheats, they promise they've changed after they're caught. Whether or not that's true isn't the issue. It's the character of the person and whether they have what it takes to change that fast.

Most of the time they don't have it.

I watched Dan's calm face, his fingers flipping through his script. His tongue wet his lips and he swallowed. Such simple mannerisms can give away a person's character, and help decide if they've changed, but Dan wasn't so open or easy to read.

So has he?

Or has he always been the same?

Human's are one of the most complex creatures, no mind wired the same way, and some were good at hiding how they thought. One person might not be who they want you to perceive. This could be from mental issues, introverted or extroverted tendencies, or just how they were raised. We were all taught to be polite and put on a smile to appear a good person, but you never really know what a person is thinking.

No matter how elaborate language is, we still can't communicate with others in the way we want. So no matter what he tells me, I don't have any reason not to believe him. It might be a flat out lie, but it's for my benefit, and on one side, ignorance is bliss. But the less I know will eventually frustrate me.

I just want to know if he's changed.

Whatever that word is supposed to mean.

In the end, everyone is concerned with happiness, or the feeling of content. We want that picture perfect life that really doesn't exist, but it's something to hold onto. Something to hope for.

"(y/n)?" I blinked once, returning from whatever tangent my mind had went off on. I glanced up at the warm brown eyes that belonged to the root of my thoughts. 

That's another thing, people think life is so simple. That it's just life. But there isn't just one cause for anything, we just haven't figured out any of the others yet. 

We keep adding on these extra factors of why something happens that soon it becomes incomprehensible. Like eyes.

Eyes are the window into the soul right? When a person's eyes are clear, you can read them, but if they're clouded, they've closed themselves off. So why, staring deeply into Dan's eyes, is the answer not clearly written there? Why can't I figure out what to believe or not?