Lust and Love

🌃 2 : "The boy in your dreams.."

"And that's it Lee, nothing much different," I say with a sigh after finishing my story-telling to my bestfriend Leah about my ANOTHER wet dream on the same guy this morning. She said nothing and is just looking at me curiously like she's observing an experiment.

So I say, "And it's been three nights in a row already. Still the same and I sometimes cringe thinking 'bout it. I need some immediate something to distract me."

Sipping on her drink she says, "Something like what?"

I'm not so sure too. God when was the last time I was being like this, so disoriented, I don't feel like me anymore, it's like I'm no longer the Jennifer Lopez that used to be strong, proud Latina woman and is always sure of her decisions and the things she does.

"I don't know," my honest answer to her awaiting question.

Leah laughs in disbelief. I know she thinks I'm crazy cause either me, I think I just sounded so stupid and unsure with myself. What the fuck is wrong with me.

She stares at me with a mischievous smirk, I already have a clue what she's thinking cause we've been friends for years, a single look on her face and I already know what's in her head. She's like that on my case too.

I take a sip on my less cold drink before asking, "What?"

That's when she starts asking kinky questions as if she's my sex therapist. "When was the last time you had sex?"

I almost choke for such explicit question. But I answer honestly, "Hmm, I think it was.. New Year's Eve? Yeah that's the last time."

"With baby Alex?" She mimics me but in a more exaggerated way.

"Oh my god who else do you think?!"

"Just wanna make sure it wasn't Beau.."

"What the fuck Leah that's never gonna happen."

"Oh yeah you're not gonna hook-up with someone while you're dating someone cause you're too old for that game well yeah fuck it, you did that with Ryan three years ago." She says skeptically.

I look around the café to make sure nobody heard it or else it will be up to the tabloids anytime soon. The media always exaggerate things as usual.

"Gosh Leah we're not the only people in here, do you know that? There are other people with EARS and EYES."

"I know," she laughs. "Anyway I just know what to do. You have to meet him."

"Meet who?"

Rolling her eyes she says, "Come on, the boy in your dreams: Ryan. You need to see him."

"Are you teaching me to cheat on Alex? Uh-huh no thanks, honey."

"Gush it's not cheating you're not gonna have sex with him anyway! I just said you should see him cause maybe you're only missing the person," She explains. "God Jen, you're mind is so dirty."

I just did not argue with her cause sometimes Leah is right. But sometimes she can really be a bitch with stupid advices. I finish my drink just before some bunch of people would hover near our table, asking for my autograph and a picture.

"I'm a very big fan of yours JLo!!"

"And we're off to go now." Leah says finishing her drink and stands up, hanging her bag on her shoulder and leaves a tip on our table.

I'm all smiles posing for pictures with my fans and I scribble my autograph on their notebooks as fast as I can. Leah hates waiting. She gets annoyed by my fans sometimes cause they would come and crowd at me and she's put aside and ignored. Well some fans ask for a picture and autographs from both of us but now, that's just not the case.

"Sorry." I grin at her like a kid as we head to my car in the parking area.

"It's your fault, you didn't bring bodyguards today." She rolls her eyes then gets inside the car. Leah is the person on earth I know that rolls her eyes more frequently than any other human being. It's one of her most used facial expression and I'm used to that.

I fasten my seatbelt and she starts the engine. Yep, she's driving my car.

"When are we meeting the boy?" She asks.

Honestly, I was kind of nervous and excited when she suggested about meeting Ryan. But she was totally out of the picture on my plans of meeting him.

"How about Alex?"

"Why do you worry so much about him? Tell him you're meeting a friend or, you can also bring him just so he'll also get to know Ryan. You're just simply meeting an old friend and that's all."

I don't think so. I just don't think it works that way.

"Okay." I just say so I can stop further argument then we zone out before the paparazzis and fans will block the drive way.

******

A/N:

Ryan posted this photo on IG in 2016 with the caption:

"#tbt to the time I had to paint a queen @jlo"

I.can't.breathe.