Lust and Love

👍38 - Back for love or for publicity?

It's the fourth of July and we fly to New York together with Natasha, Ella, Max and Emme. Celebrating independence day is also a perfect day to have a good time with the family. It was a quick decision by me and Alex to stay in NY and fly back to LA with our private plane after 5 days. Just so we could unwind and chill because we had so much these past few weeks.

But before planning this short vacation, I had called Benny and my publicist to cancel my gig supposedly for this day. Benny was so kind, he's always being so considerate of me and because he know's what I've been going through.

I've seen all these other celebrities celebrating Independence day by posting a lot of pictures on Instagram, Twitter and Facebook with different hashtags related to the holiday. Reese Witherspoon posted a photo of her packing her stuffs themed with the American flag for her vacay. The momager Kris Jenner posted a photo of her gorgeous daughter Kendall, covering herself with the national flag.

And now here in the streets of New York there a bunch of people wearing clothes with the same colors and patterns with the flag itself.

We did a lot of stuffs in a day. In the morning, I go shopping with Tashi, Ella and Emme. We call it Girls' Day Out. We even walk all through the Times Square which is overwhelmingly always filled with busy people, but we really enjoyed strolling around though. We don't always do this at LA. Glad that we had Steve tailing us, ready to serve us as our shield in case a paparazzi would attack.

I remember one time when I was in Paris and my mom was there with me. The paps there are very crazy. I went to the nearby park to chill and take a walk and when a stubborn paparazzi came on our way and would never stop bothering us, mom had to shoot them with the water gun she was holding. I was just laughing at her silliness.

Us girls had a great time buying them nice clothes and other stuffs. While Alex and Max were having their own bonding, like a father and a son. Boys will be boys, they say.

We also had lunch together at a well-known restaurant in New York City. Later then in the evening we had dinner together with some of my very long time friends in Manhattan. The particular restaurant is not so far from the flat we are staying.

I am enjoying the holiday so much. Especially that I'm surrounded with all these good people and my love ones. This vacay is really helping me to cope up with the hardships I've been through lately. I found myself again and I also feel so much happiness.

I feel like I'm back to being ME. The usual ME. The usual life I had where there's just good vibes and nothing else. I'm more active on social media too. Soon I'll be back to being so busy again. I've got so much on my plate. And opportunities keep on coming on my way. But I really love everything what I do. And that's just what it should be. Love what you do and everything will be worth it at the end.

At the very end of the night when we are finally taking our rests in our flat in a private place in Manhattan, Alex and I are talking and laughing nonstop about so many things we've been up to this day. He says he's so amazed with Max cause he is so good at playing different virtual and computer games, he couldn't ever defeat him. I told him Max is really expert when it comes to electronics.

When we got to our rooms at almost 10pm to go to sleep, Alex and I get to the our sides of the bed. I'm just smiling the whole time cause as I've said, I feel so happy this day. Things are really getting bright.

"I've never seen your face so delighted since few weeks ago." Alex says.

I grin at him before saying, "This vacation is a really good idea. I'm just so happy. Thank you for making this day so happy."

"I'm just glad you're happy again."

As we both just sit on the bed for a while and rest our heads on the headboard, I pull the covers on my lap and say, "I just want to say sorry for all that has happened. I'm so happy today and I realize we can be just as happy as this if we stay together."

Alex just nods without even looking at me. Is that all? Didn't he get my point? That I want us to be back again? Or he just doesn't feel our relationship would work anymore.

"Alex, we should work things out. I know we can. Look, I know it's been very tough for you. It's been so hard for both of us. But I think that was a challenge to test us both." I say, only to get no reaction from him.

He seems to be thinking something deep so I continue, "Look, I admit.. I've done so much. Now I just see that you've been so martyr in our relationship. You were too good for me. But I'd really like to keep you, Alex."

"Jen, it's.."

"Please forgive me," I say, cupping his face.

"Love.." Alex starts again. "Because this is our first big issue in our relationship. And because we are technically on a break. I'll consider you sleeping with someone else. But to tell you honestly, I'm so angry with myself. That I've been lacking to you. That I've let you find pleasure with someone else. I have my mistakes too. And so I'm saying.. I'm giving a second shot in this relationship. That is, if you're also willing."

"Of course, baby. We can start again." I say with sparks of hope in my eyes.

"Let's give each other a second chance, okay?"

"Yes! We deserve it."

"So we're officially back again?"

"Of course, baby. We ARE back."

He hugs me so tight and I do the same. We are both so happy. This is the best event of this day among all things: that we get back finally after a short break that only us knew. As you can see, my relationship with Alex seems so perfect in people's eyes. We are "a match made in heaven", they say. Because of this relationship, we both gained so much publicity. We are currently one of the most shipped couples of Hollywood. And at the same time, the coconuts already love him and his daughters being part of the "family".

Giving this relationship a second chance just gives us back with so much benefits..

Or does it?

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A/N: have you noticed the changes I made in some chapters? Not major though.. but I also added PHOTOS in some chapters 😍😍