Lust and Love

😓21 - The Only Way

It's
been few weeks since Alex told me about his appointment in Miami and I can't believe I almost forget that. I mean, I could have totally forget about it not until I saw the calendar hanging on the wall, reminding me to turn it to the next page cause May just started.

And gladly, I haven't got any text "demands" from Casper the never-been-friendly psycho.

I haven't heard from Ryan either. Except his one text last week where he complimented me that I looked so hot at the Met Gala. He wasn't there at the event but I'm pretty sure it's everywhere on social media. I didn't send him a reply and that pretty much silenced the communication between us. Which, I'm very thankful cause I'll slowly get rid of him. Seeing him less reduces my problems, I think.. But I kinda miss him..

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Alex already left yesterday. There's a bad and a good thing about his trip. The bad is, well, he'll be away from me obviously but the good one, I can go start with my mission which I just previously thought of.

After sending the kids to school, cause I don't have anything to do this morning, I ran through Instagram then saw Taylor Swift's Day. It was a picture of an olive branch with an open letter attached to it. It was in a hand written text which I could barely read probably because I'm already having a bad eye sight due to aging or maybe just a bad penmanship. Tay captioned "Thank you Katy❤".

Well, good for her. It's probably a sign of ending their feud. No more bad blood. The beef is off the grill.

And speaking of bad blood, the next post that caught my eye was one from Mariah. She's going to have a concert tour in Asia sooner. I'm surprised that it's actually her first time to do a world tour noting that she's been decades in the industry. And seeing that post, I honestly don't care that much though. And why am I even seeing her posts, I'm not following her. But hey, I'm not bitter, okay. I'm good. I'm a fan of her. Of her music. It's just her. Being Mariah. Being a diva. And whatever..

Then I go to snapchat and the first thing I see is Leah's snap which is her on a squirrel filter having a really yummy-looking but dangerously high carb-filled breakfast. I decided to take a photo of me and send it to her, so I did a pouting pose pretending to be sad. But actually that's what I'm really feeling right now since I got a lot of things going on.

Not for long she replies "Hey cutie😘". Not expecting for her charming mood today, I send her "😘😘😘" back. Then so quick, she sends back "come over to mah haus😍🙌".

At exactly 10am I drive myself to Leah's to see what is up. She seems to have a bright day today. But that didn't seem odd though cause she's been hyper ever since she started dating.. ugh Beau.

And speaking of Beau, I hope not to see his face today when I arrive at Lee's.

"Hola!! You seem to have a "nice" mood today, what did I miss?" I exclaim as soon as I enter her family room.

But I guess she didn't hear me. I'm just excited with what ever good news she has. "What's the news I need to keep up, Lee?"

Still no answer so I go to the kitchen, she may be busy making more carb-filled dishes. Leah is the person I know who can't resist carbs even if she's on a strict no-carb diet.

"Is there anything I- uhh, where's Leah?"

The last person on earth I wanna see glares at me and answers coolly (but uh, not cool😒), "Not here, obviously."

I roll my eyes at Beau who was sitting on the counter, "Well, where is she?"

"Why are you always looking for unavailable people? I'm all here, don't you need me?"