Lust and Love

😶13 : Arod comes home

Thursday morning and I'm awaken by someone's message as my phone rings. Before I can guess who it is, and yes I'm right, it's Ryan. He always texts me every morning but eventually this needs to stop. I mean, he can still text me but in a more "careful" way like.. in a friendly way.

iMessage from Ryan > Me: Rise n' shine! If ur not busy drop by at my place for some time;)

I sigh and realize that yesterday is probably the last day I could fool around with him. I should have enjoyed more of it while it lasted.

iMessage from Me > Ryan: I can't. Alex's coming home today. I think I won't come by your place anytime soon.

iMessage from Ryan > Me: :(

iMessage from Ryan > Me: I'm gonna miss you Ms. Lopez

I didn't reply to his message. It makes me sad too. Anyway I'm gonna be very busy for today, I'll just divert my attention to my career. I have a lot of scheduling and might as well include Alex's homecoming.

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It's been a tiring day, now I'm sitting on my side of the bed in my nighties, waiting for Alex. He came from his trip just this morning and I miss him so much. His daughters Natasha and Ella are also here, in the other room. Alex is still taking a shower and good thing, our room has it's own bathroom.

While waiting for him, I remember to check my phone to see if I need to delete some stuffs that are not necessary for my boyfriend to see. My conversation with Ryan.. Then I check my convo with Leah if we ever talked about Ryan. But there was none. She only texted about Casper and how he makes her feel so special. Though I don't ship that bastard with my bestfriend, I should be happy for them.

The bathroom door opens and Alex comes out. He's already dressed in his nighties that have matching colors with mine. "Hey, love."

I hurriedly delete my whole conversation with Ryan.

"Heyyy sweetie." I say, putting my phone on the bedside table.

To be honest, I feel bad that I don't feel guilty at all about what I did while he was away. And now he comes back thinking his girlfriend is being 100% faithful and is patiently waiting for him.

He goes to his side of the bed and kisses me. Then he says after, "I miss you, love."

"Me too." I say. But it came out dry. "I've been thinking about you all the time," I added to make it more believable.

"Really?" He chuckles. "Did you know that I think I saw you there? In Sacramento? It was Tuesday night perhaps.."

I gulp and feel nervous. Was it really him? The one I saw on the other side of the street when I was in Ryan's home in Sacramento? And he saw me too?! How awful. What's my excuse now??

"R-really..?"

"Perhaps I just missed you that much." He says and I feel so relieved.

How stupid am I, really. Fucking someone else and going to his place where my boyfriend was having his appointment. Next time I should be extra careful and attentive. If there is a 'next time'..

We're just looking at each other for few moments then he kisses me. So deep and hard like we hadn't kiss for decades. He kisses me so hard until I lay on the bed and he goes on top of me. He slips his hand under my night gown & grabs my ass.

He then kisses my neck and he slowly slips the straps of my nighties off my shoulder. I'm not wearing a bra so my boobs were almost bared. It feels so good but eventually, that feeling disappears when I look at him. I see someone else. I remember the night I had with Ryan. All I can see is his sexy naked body. I shake my head, god here's my dirty mind again.

He attempts to take off his upper nighties but I stop him. I'm just not in the mood to go further than kissing and ass-grabbing.

"Baby, I'm tired. Let's just sleep."

"Didn't you miss me?"

"Of course I do. I really do. It's just.. I've been working all day.."

"It's okay. I respect your decision. Let's sleep now. You need to have your beauty rest." He says, fixing his nighties and pulls the covers to make us sleep.

I fix my own nighties and kiss him goodnight. I'm lucky to have an understanding man like him. But I don't think he deserves a sneaky woman like me. It's not my fault, I've been kind of bored with our relationship lately.

I'm human too.