Lust and Love

🚫31 - Illegal

6/25/18
Before starting, I would like to congratulate this book for making it (#2 - jlo) omggg idk why it got to the second place in "jlo" tags😱😅

mmkay here's chap31. Enjoy😘

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Jennifer Lopez's POV

It's been four days since my last conversation with Beau at the hotel happened. And up to this day, I'm still waiting for my "scandal" to be exposed. I wonder why he hasn't done anything to it. It's not that I want him to post it, it's just odd that he didn't make a move about it yet when it's very clear he really wants to ruin my career. And it's the perfect way for him to be successful with his evil plans. My life is in his hands now.

But while my life isn't over yet, I decide to live it to the fullest while it lasts. Then I remember about Ryan. We still have an unclear and unfinished business too. I don't know what to do with him, I deleted his number cause I think I won't be contacting him anytime soon. I don't know what to do with Beau also so I will just wait and see what happens. Instead of thinking too much about everything, I spend more time with my so-called "blended family". And when I say blended family, I meant the coconuts, Alex, and his daughters.

I go back to being the "busy diva" like how they call it. I pretty much completed my tasks and errands to follow up in my schedule. I accomplished every gig my manager and my publicist gave me. I did appearances and I update my social media accounts to interact with people. Alex and I are still together although he told me he'll give me time to think and he's eager to wait for my final decision. As if I could just leave him..

And because no one has to know that we're currently in some sort of a "short" break. I mean we can't just publicize it, people has been supporting our relationship. I can't even tell my mom nor my manager, how much more the public.

"Jen.."

But my mom seemed to sense the oddness between me and Alex lately, she asked me if everything is okay and I just assured her that it is. No one else has to know. It should be kept only between me and Alex. Beau and Ryan.

I suddenly think about Leah. I miss her. What is she up to these days? It's so weird we haven't been in touch with each other lately. And once again, I feel guilty for not telling her anything. Poor Leah, fooled by people around her. Especially me. Ugh..

"Jen?"

I snap out of my thoughts and glance at Benny. We are in the car with Steve, heading to Benny's office in CTM Building in Hollywood. He arranges me to a new gig for this coming 4th of July.

"Uh, y-yes? What is it Benny?"

"Nothing," he grins oddly. "I am just checking if you're still there. You've been so quiet and seemed to be lost in deep thoughts."

I look at my lap and smile. "I'm fine. I'm just looking forward to the independence day."

"You've got a lot on your way, Jen." He smiles back. "You surely have a lot to look forward to next month."

I look at him and frown, I'm confused if I forgot something to 'look forward to'.

"Yours and Alex's birthday is in a month!"

"You gotta not forget to invite me, Miss Lopez." Steve chirps in with us.

I shake my head and laugh along with them. "Sure."

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After my meeting with my management, we finally come for a break. Getting out of the room, I suddenly think of making a stroll around the building and see if I can meet familiar faces. A while ago at the entrance, I had exchanged hi's with Katy Perry. She's very gorgeous and is rocking that extremely short blonde haircut. I think it's odd that we aren't that much close. She had recorded in Sony Records in some time, that's where I have my record deal for decades already. She's a judge in American Idol and I've been there too. We've met many times in some events but never really had a chance to talk further rather than smiles and mere hi's. And she's a pop icon. It's odd that we didn't become much close friends.