Lust and Love

🔛43 - Going separate ways

"What's up?"

I'm currently at a restaurant in West Hollywood with Leah. As promised, we'll hang out shortly after she returns from her vacay with her boyfriend. It would have been last week but I was with Alex in Italy and really had an undeniably great time there. Now I get why Leah wanted so bad to have a getaway with her toyboy. But still, it wasn't valid enough to ditch me at my very own birthday. But anyway.. Now she's finally here and she promised to make it up to me so I asked Alex if I could go on a girly date with my bestfriend since I'm free today.

"What's up, too?" Leah asks me back.

"I'm definitely doing well. Like, very well."

She raises one brow at me, clearly having a doubt with what I said. Or maybe she wasn't too convinced. So I make sure I really mean what I mean.

"I'm doing very well and I really mean it," I pronounce.

"Oh sure, you've been in Italy with your papi, who would not have a great time with that? I mean, there could have been lots of sex during the boat ride," she jokes.

"What the fuck?! People aren't allowed to have sex in a boat like that one in a very public place!" I'm practically trying my best not to make a scene in the restaurant before people will hover around us.

"So what if it WAS allowed, would you and Alex do it?"

"Hahahahaha you're crazy. By the way you should be the one telling me about your vacation, I'm sure you had sooo much fun, you extended for few more days! Spill the details, Lee."

She looks away and laughs. And I can also see her blushing, she might have suddenly think of a "romantic scene" while she was with Beau, which the idea really makes me wanna throw up.

"We've been to Greece," she simply says but still obviously trying hard to contain herself.

"To Greece?"

She just smiled like a lovesick teenager. Ugh, Leah.

"W-wow." I say. I didn't mean to make that sound plastic. "That's surely romantic!"

"It is! Oh my god, Jen, if only you were there, you'll see how deeply in love Beau and I with each other-"

"If I were there, well, I wouldn't be there watching you two cause I don't wanna be a third wheel," I cut her in the middle of her story. "I'd rather enjoy with myself too."

"Like, fingering yourself? That's sad," she continues, "But anyway.. If only you were there, you'll realize how lucky I am to have Beau. It's like hitting the lottery, but the prize is more than just any money." She gushes, totally lost in her illusions.

I just shake my head at her but she just ignores me and continue to tell her "blissful" moments.

"I've told you everything already, Lee. So please don't go to me crying when your relationship don't ship but sinks.."

"Oh here we go again for the 4th time. Are we gonna bring this take-your-advice-about-my-lovelife shit again?" She surprisingly raises her voice at me like, there is a sudden mood change from calm to slightly upset.

And I never really intent to upset her. It was just a friendly reminder cause that's what best friends supposedly do, right? Constantly reminding each other when something's off in a situation. We always have instincts to distinguish right from wrong and when they're going to happen.

"I'm just concerned about you-"

"Concerned about you my ass. Or maybe you're just concerned about yourself?"

But as usual, she often misunderstood it. That's Leah. Sometimes she just choose to be stubborn. Well, I can't really blame her cause sometimes I don't listen to her either. But still..

"Lee, you know I just always think what's good for you. I don't mean to sound like I'm your mom but hey, I know if I'm put in a situation as yours, you'll also warn me about same things," I try to explain, hoping she'll understand but I know she wouldn't.

"Why don't you just mind your own business? I never held you back from Ryan even if I know it's risky. Cause I know it's what makes you happy. I know you had fun. But why can't I have my own happiness? You see, Beau means the world to me right now."

"Leah, don't try to make a scene, lower your voice.."

"It's like, why am I always the one who seem to be not allowed to go out and have fun with someone or something just like any other normal women do?"

"Leah you don't know what you're talking about. Please don't be so blind like I had been."

"I know what I'm doing Jen! Okay, maybe let's just separate. You go with your life, I don't care! And I'll go on with mine so don't ever bother me again and tell me what to do."

Leah stands up and puts some bills on our table.

"At least finish your food!" I say to her. It's not because I'm really concerned with her left overs, but I think it's the only thing that could make her stay a longer while, which, I'm totally wrong..

"Bye, Jen." She puts on her glasses and is very quick in leaving the restaurant. And leaving me alone in our supposedly table. And I no longer had the appetite to finish my salad, too, since she left hers.

"Puta. What a real stubborn human being she is."

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FUN FACT: Ryan Guzman was wearing a "dick tie" during his sex scene with Jennifer Lopez in The Boy Next Door.

Now my imagination is ruined 😭😵 I know I'm too stupid to thinking that they really did the deed onscreen but still.. 😰

*in case you don't know what's a dick tie, see his interview with cosmopolitan.com or visit this link below👇

https://www.bustle.com/articles/60274-ryan-guzman-explains-dick-ties-the-painful-cinema-secret-you-didnt-know-existed

I know it's been 3 years and I only knew about this just lately 😭