Lust and Love

👶40 - Coconut #3..?

The other day, I spent it with my boyfriend Alex at the 89th MLB All Star Game in Washington. He was so happy I came along with him despite of my hell-like schedule. I just want to fill the lack I've been to him the past months. I'm like, repenting my sins.  So we could actually work things out again. He says that whenever I visit in games like this with him, it's never "work" for him. He says he really appreciates it when I'm around.

He posted a stolen photo of me and him at the game. I don't know who took that shot. He always posts pictures of me too in his Instagram account sometimes I don't even know he does until I see them already posted. And some of them are so hilarious and I don't even know he takes a lot of pictures of me. Like that one video of me dancing and having so much fun at the last Met Ball. And I was like, why did you post this thing.. for Christ sake!  But in a laughing way. He would say he likes seeing me dance. Cause he also loves dancers generally and he loves to dance too.

But I wasn't really so enjoying that day at the game cause I was still thinking about a lot of stuffs. And the media pretty much noticed my expressions and them concluding that I didn't look too glad at the game with my boyfriend. Well, I really.. I mean, I just have so much on my plate right now.

The final season of Shades of Blue is currently airing. World of Dance is currently airing. The music video of "Dinero" was just nominated for two VMAs. And the trailer of my new movie Second Act will be out this week.

Second Act is about Maya, who works at Costco, or something like it and she's passed over for a promotion because she doesn't have a degree. So she decides to make a run at a corporate career. Also starring Leah Remini who plays as my best friend in the movie too, and Milo Ventimiglia who plays as my boyfriend. I also produce it.  It's a work comedy.  And it's  opening in November,  holiday season here in the US.

This is a small-to-mid budget comedy and I've already done well in this kind of business model.  Back in 2015, The Boy Next Door made back on it's budget in the first weekend.

And I still have so much to do. But I like myself getting busy though. It's much better that way.  It's much better to have some productive things to do than getting busy worrying about things that wouldn't help anyone not even me. I'm just grateful that for two decades in this industry,  I still have a lot of things on my hands and I'm working on them.

Now getting back to LA, I really notice some health issues with myself.  I mean,  yesterday when I took a shower, I felt really this dizzy. It was so crazy but thankfully I managed not to fall on the slippery floor and might have even broken my head for God's sake. And on the way on our flight from Washington to way back home, I fainted in the plane. Which was really unusual cause I can't remember when was the last time I fainted. Alex just said maybe I was just tired cause I've been back to working so much.

And just this morning, when I just woke up, I suddenly had the urge to throw up and felt this annoying dizziness in my head again. Woah. No, I can't get ill. Just.. Just not this time! Sometimes a person experiences these things when they are so stressed or maybe over fatigued and that's the start of a really awful long sickness. I always hate the idea of getting hospitalized.

I immediately run to the sink and bend over, ready to let out the stinky vomit. But nothing came out. This is definitely not funny. I need to tell Alex right now.  He's probably already downstairs.

I go back to bed to just lie for a while and cool down and observe of what's going to happen next. I don't really feel okay.  Resting my head and my back on the stack of comfortable pillows, I reach for my phone on the nightstand cause it suddenly rang,  indicating a new message.