Lust and Love

🙊47 - Leah's SURPRISE

It's been a productive week, I've got new scheduled dates for my Vegas show. I did three shows this week, September 2, 5 and 7. Supposedly I also had one for September 9, Saturday night but I cancelled it for so many reasons. I know it'll disappoint my audience but for my part, I don't just cancel a show or decline a gig when it doesn't have literally a million valid reasons.

To start off my list of reasons which I consider "valid" for my own purposes, I need to rest. I always want my weekends to be spent with my family, my kids, or with anyone who is very much important to me. And most especially I need to spend some alone time too, even with my impossible schedule. Thank God, I still always have the strength to fly from place to place. We arrived in California from Las Vegas yesterday then I did some appointments with Benny in his office together with my publicist and the rest of my management. I'm going to have a new song sooner and I'm excited whether it's going to be solo or I'll be working with other artists again.

Even if I seem to get myself intentional over-fatigued, I'm still glad that because of being too busy, I actually recovered fast from the scary incident that happened a week ago. Or should we say, the stupidly out-of-this-world dream that haunted me. And could hunt me forever for whatever reason. At least now I'm not paying attention to it that much. And why should I? It's just a single nightmare. Everyone has. I told no one about it. Not yet..

As promised two days ago, I'm going to spend my Saturday noon at Leah's cause she said she's got a surprise for me. I'm thrilled to see what it could be. We all know how crazy she is so I just prepared myself for whatever will happen. I just hope it isn't about Beau. It's not that I'm bitter, but I just don't want him to be involved in my life ever again. But of course I already learned from the past, Leah assured me that Beau won't be around when I come over. She knows I'll never come over if I see even a bit of his shadow.

Leah says her boyfriend will come around at 2pm and that's why I should leave by 1 o'clock. Steve should pick me up by that exact time cause who knows, her boyfriend may arrive earlier than expected. And to be honest, I still find it hard getting used of Leah calling her boyfriend boyfriend.

Time flies so fast, and because I want to focus on this part of the day more on my visit to Leah's. The highlight must be about her "surprise" for me and I can hardly wait for it. By the way, later this evening I'm going to have a dinner date with Alex. I have to get things done and spend time with my love life at the same time too in order for it to work out. And I also have to deal with my kids. Max and Emme will be in fifth grade next week.

Fast Forward ⏩

"What's with the tea? Since when did you learn to be so into being healthy?" I ask Leah, noticing that she gave me a glass of 3-types-of-berries smoothie while she has a cup of tea for herself, which is really odd for someone like Leah. My two said sentences rhymed tho..

"I don't know if that's an insult, like you never see me do healthy stuffs like overly health conscious people like YOU do, but I should be starting for a new lifestyle now." She explains as she hands me my smoothie.

"Hmm this is good.. But why?" I say after taking a sip on the sweet berry mixture.

"Why? Why should I start a healthy lifestyle? Well, that's in connection to my news for you today, which is why I call it a 'surprise' cause it's something big."

Don't tell me Beau taught you to be extra "healthy". I remember him being so overly health conscious, as what Leah like to call it, just like me. And that was one of the few things we can relate with each other. Ugh, what did I just think about.. Erase erase erase.. I mean, Leah has always been health conscious too but I guess she's taking it to a new level now. Which is, again, odd.