Lust and Love

🎂41 - Triple B (Birthday Bash in Bahamas)

Few days before my birthday, I spent a lot of time in the gym with my man Alex. I'm so busy this birthday week. And by the way,  the official trailer of Second Act is already out.

I've been working out a lot, Alex even had took a video of me at the gym and once again, he posted it in his instgram without my permission. He says he's amazed of how energetic I am in working out despite my age.

Everytime I'm having my birthday, I always get a lot of compliments about my age. I mean, most people would say that I am ageing backwards. Then they would ask what medications I take, what my daily routines are, what foods I eat or generally, what's my secret in staying fit and youthful.

I think it's just within you. It's in the positivity of your mind. When you think positively about yourself, you'll be happy and when you're happy and contented with your life, your mind stops thinking about ageing. When you view yourself as someone who's  physically and mentally getting old year by year, your find will focus that you are really getting old.

Life is too short to worry about getting old. All of us will come to that phase. All of us will age and eventually die. That's why I'm living mine to the fullest while I still have the energy to do a lot of stuffs and do what I love.

I decided to celebrate my birthday away from home for some twist. Last year and the other year, I had a huge party at home with many celebrity guests. So this birthday, we stayed at Baker's Bay resort in Bahamas with my kids and Alex's daughters.

Alex posted a birthday message for me at the exact day of my birthday on IG and included photos. He also shared several of his favorite photos of mine, including a makeup-free picture of me in the ocean during our getaway. I feel so loved and lucky to have this family in my life.

Last week when I had an interview for Emmy Magazine, once again I was asked tons of questions about how I managed to look and feel so young.

I laugh it out and answered jokingly, "Listen, at some point I'm going to age."

Because it's true. Next year I'm gonna be 50 and that's a whole new stage. They'll say 'She looks old!' But right now, I'm holding it together.

And as I've said, Alex is consistently amazed of my youthful energy. One time when he was across the lawn, I brought him something and I ran away. He said, 'You run like you're 25 years old.'

I haven't stopped that pace, so I'm still at that pace I guess. When things start aching more, it will be different. I mean, no one wants to get old, right? But really, we can't prevent that from happening. All of us will get to that point in life and that's just how it is.

So let's get back to my big day, my manager Benny was there. Aside from being my manager, he's been a close family friend for decades so of course he's present in every birthday and other occasions. My family and relatives were there, my closest friends for years,  my real homies..

Everyone surely had a great time. We had a beach party where everyone showed off there assets in rocking swim wear. I wore a tiny black bikini. Then in the evening there was an indoor party with lots of food, desserts, drinks, great music, and the venue was surrounded with significant people in my life.

When the people started dancing, I dance myself out there too and enjoyed the rest of the night. When I was dancing near the cake table, Alex came over and gave me a peck on the lips.

"Happy Birthday, love! It's my nth greeting, but enjoy your special day of the year."

"Thank you so much, baby. You are one of the reasons making this day extra special." I said with so much enthusiasm.

After an hour of putting myself out there and entertaining my guests, exchanging conversations, I checked my phone. Oh yeah, I totally forgot about it the whole time. I only used it for picture taking. Even with this joyous celebration with lots of people, I remember one person who failed to celebrate this special day with me: Leah.

My social media notifications are flooding. Fans all over the world are sending their birthday wishes and long messages for me. Gotta read them later on. In my inbox were a few messages. I click on Leah's message.

iMessage from Leah > Me: Happy birthday jeeeeen!! Please enjoy your big day even if I wasn't there to smash your cake 😏 I know you're having so much fun right now. Love you 😘 🎂🎁🎉

iMessage from Me > Leah : you are so unfair.😤

iMessage from Leah > Me : I know I promised! I'm really sorry. Don't worry I'll make it up to you. I promise..  This time I mean it,  I promise 🙏

I can't stand all this typing thing so I decided to call her instead. After a ring, she immediately answers.

"I hate you." I say in a sad voice.

"I know you do right now. But later on you will love me again." She says, being so sure of herself. "I'm really sorry. I have a valid reason."

"What valid reason?" If I know it's all about Beau. Is he more important than me now, huh?

"Ugh, I'll tell you when I come home. I will really make it up to you, Jen. I love you. Please don't hate me."

"I still hate you."

"I sent you my gift. Hope you love it."

"I haven't open gifts yet. And your presence is much important." I decided to play stubborn.

"Jeeen I'm so sorry baby.. Just spare me this time. I'll do you a favor when I get back. Please!!"

Even if I'm not seeing her, I can still feel her begging-puppy-eyes right now which, of course I can't resist. She's my best friend after all. And I'm already having so much fun in the middle of the party. I don't wanna let a single person ruin my birthday mood.

"Okay, Lee. Seems like you're really enjoying your vacay." I say in a bit hurry cause I just hear someone calling out my name.

"Seems like you're enjoying your party too.  I'm jealous."

"Good for you. I told you you should have been here."

"Is Guzman babe around?" Leah surprises me with a sudden subject change.

"Wow that's so off-topic I'm so unprepared." I laugh.

"Are you gonna sit on his face tonight just like every birthday tradition?"

"Sit on.. what? What the fuck?! Come on I gotta hang up now. We are soooo having fun right now." I exaggerate to make her even more jealous.

"Okay okay happy birthday again love ya."

"Thank you love ya too."

Then before I finally hang up, something got into my head so I added, "And happy sitting on Beau's face, bye!"

I immediately end the call before she could fire back and come up with a much better insult.

"Jen, time to slice the cake!"

As soon as I went to the beautiful 5-layer cake, I start picking on the icing with my finger and lick it off. There were so many picture taking stuffs and people are dancing along. I am dancing myself to the current music playing Birthday Cake by Rhianna featuring Chris Brown. I just know that this would be another memorable day of the year. ✨

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A/N: took so long to post this chap and I know it's short. I'm no celeb like Jennifer but fuck that, I'm so busy too. School is slowly murdering me. I hope I won't die sooner cause if I do, I won't be able to finish this fic..

So thank you so much for all your support. See you at the comments and don't forget to pray for my soul😆 aight.. Bye😚