Loki Imagines

New Beginning

People socialized all through Tony's new Malibu mansion for his New Year's Eve party. Loki walked around with his hands behind his back observing these people he had purposefully brought together. He thought about how Thanos used to torture him and how petty he was about the throne. He just wanted to be Thor's equal back then. Now he thought about how all this got him here, and he realized he was worth something. He valued himself not to much on pride, but he knew he wasn't just a shadow. Through all this he knew, he just wanted a fresh start.

He knew not of these earth traditions or culture so he was reliant on Thor, who was glad to have his brother back. It's not that the other Avengers didn't like him, in fact they forgave him. He just would prefer Thor's help, or maybe y/n, but he couldn't find her. He wouldn't be surprised if she was rather in the corner, asleep on one of the couches, reading a book, or she simply didn't come at all and was watching a movie on her own.

Then Loki kept hearing about one thing. A midnight kiss. He didn't understand. Well he knew about kissing, however was it required? If it was, he didn't necessarily want his first kiss to be like this. He decided to talk about it with Thor.

"Thor... "

"Oh hello brother. Is something wrong?"

"Well I just don't understand... What's this midnight kiss?"

"Oh well you basically kiss someone at midnight. It's like to kickoff the new year. You-" before Thor could finish Loki was on his way. He didn't want his first kiss to be like this, but he supposed it's what he should do.

He would walk around and approach women to ask. Some said they already had someone to kiss, others politely declined, and others declined to him rather rudely. He figured that's what would happen so he went back to Thor.

"Thor... I've been asking women all night and everytime they reject me. I know I've done some bad things, but I'm not that man anymore. What am I doing wrong?" Loki whispered.

"Loki, you didn't let me finish before you left. It might be a tradition here, but you don't have to kiss someone if you don't want to. Also you don't just ask some random maiden. Well you can, but most the time people will kiss someone who means a lot to them. Someone they like or even moreso, love." Thor patted Loki's shoulder. "Loki you should do what you want. You don't have to kiss anyone, but if you do make it worthwhile. It would be your first kiss if I'm not mistaken."
Loki nodded. "I know you'll make the right choice, whatever you do."

Thor moved on and Loki was overwhelmed he wasn't quite sure what he wanted to do. He began to roam again when he bumped into Wanda.

"Oh I'm sorry." He looked down.

She smirked looking at him. "It's okay... You know I don't do well with the cold anymore ironically, but Tony says the balcony on the furthest hallway to the left is one of the best places to get a view of the fireworks."

Before he could say anything she was gone. Why did she tell him that? He watched as she walked to Vision hugging him and Loki immediately had a longing to have something like that. Almost all the Avengers were dating or married. Here he was never participating in any of that the whole of his life. The only love he knew for a long time, was a mother's love. Frigga. He missed her dearly, but he knew she wouldn't want him to grieve. He still had so many things to work through and figure out himself. He decided to stop thinking about these things.

All was quite he looked up to see he had gotten away from the party. It was rather comforting the odd silence a break from the mass of people here mostly didn't know. However he heard music that was different than the party's music. It was something he was familiar with. It seemed to be a collection of some of y/n's favorite music. He followed the music that ultimately... Led to the balcony. The closer he got the more he could hear a voice singing to the song. It was beautiful to him even more than the actual singer. As he approached he noticed someone was in the huge white cotton hammock.