My Messed Up Life

Unwanted Call, And Memories

When I first kissed him, he was happy and smiling into the kiss, but immediatly felt guilty because he knew it'll just put more stress on me.

I pulled away and got up. I knew I shouldn't have kissed him, he probably won't talk to me anymore. I started to cry and he just held me.

"Sierra what's wrong?" he asked.

"I just keep screwing up. First Brian and Stephen were fighting over me and I kissed them both and. Then I come here to get away from it for a bit and I kiss you, my bestfriend, my only bestfriend besides Jess. And now I probably ruined our friendship" I began sobbing.

"Sierra calm down. I'm not going to quit being bestfriends with you just because we kissed, it was an in the moment thing and, I was going to kiss you if you didn't kiss me first anyway" He responded.

"Really?!" I asked afraid.

"Yeah" now he's rocking me to calm me down

I was sitting on the couch with him, and then everyone else started waking up. First Mike, then Tony, Jaime, Danae, and Chole. Damn girls sleep later than guys. We were all talking, and joking around until my phone rang.

Perfect by Simple Plan started to play and I knew one of the five people it could be. I walked outside to answer it. It was my sister, what could she possibly want I moaned. I amswered it.

"Hello?" she asked crying.

"Sam? are you ok?" I asked actually concerned for my little sister.

"N-no, I'm n-n-not ok"

"SAMANTHA WHATS WRONG!?" I yelled into the phone wanting to know what's happening.

"Sh-sh-sh-she's gone!" she began to be full out sobbing.

"W-what?, w-who's g-gone?" I asked already knowing the answer.

"My baby, my little baby, I love her so much. SIERRA ALYSSEA'S G-GONE" she's crying to much, I can't stop her.

"What? no she can't be gone, I'm not home,  I couldn't even say bye, no she can't be. TELL THAT STUPID WHORE TO LEAVE MY BABY!" I started to scream and burst into tears. I just can't, she made everyday better, and she's not even three yet. she will be in November but just not yet.

She hung up and I sat there with my phone on the ground next to me as I'm sitting on my legs, punching as hard as I can onto my legs and pulling my hair as hard as possible, sobbing my eyes out that Alyssea's gone, I can't see anymore, because of tears.

Vic, Tony, Jaime, Mike, Danae and Chloe heard me screaming and ran outside. I guess I scream really loud because, Kellin, the SWS gang, Devonya, Jewely, Brendon, Oli, the BVB gang, the ATL gang and TSS all ran outside to come check on me. They all look at me beating myself up and just ask why.

I finally calm down enough to talk.

"W-well, you s-see, my moms bestfriend Margarets' daughter Shana had a daughter named Alyssea, and they lived with us when she was born and then found apartments to move into. We got and watched her a little, while they were at work. My mom started to notice bruises and got temporary guardian shipnover her and so we pretty much had her since she was born and she was my baby, my bany sister. Shana had moved to Michigan. I always dreamed and told my mom that once I turned 18, in 6, 5, 4, and now 3 years I would adopt her and she would legally be my daughter. I couldn't even make it to her 3rd birthday because now when I'm gone living my dream on warped tour, singing, and meeting my inspirations, that stupid bitch cane down from Michigan and took my baby away from me, she's not even hers anymore, she's mine. That's why she waits a little before all the holidays and when I'm gone, so I can't beat her 22 year old fat ass and so she can spend all the holidays, especially her 3rd birthday. and that means I won't be able to spend my 16th birthday with her.