My Messed Up Life

Memories And Guilt

When they were going on stage, Brian asked if I wanted to go with them and sing. I don't want to disappoint fans so I went.

I put on a fake smile and fake positive attitude and sang my two songs. It doesn't seem like the fans noticed, but I hope they didn't and aren't just acting like they didn't when they did.

As I was waiting to do the last song I was Quietly singing Weightless by ATL and Jack heard me and complimented me.

After I got off stage ATL started to go on and halfway through their performance Jack interupted Alex and his dick jokes and said

"Wait -wait-wait Alex, before we do the usual isn't their something we wanted to do that's unusual?" he said and smiled at me.

"What? having sex with a girl?"

"No you dumbass our friend?"

"Oh fuck, that's right, everyone welcome our friend Sierra back on stage" he said and clapped.

What the hell is going on?

"Hey guys I'm back but I don't know why. These dickholes just dragged me on stage" I stated with a fake laugh as I created a new term.

"Come on Sierra, isn't this the song you were singing a few moments ago?" Jack asked as they started playing Weightless.

"Oh, yeah its my favorite song besides Somewhere In Neverland"

They started playing more of the song and then Alex and I started to sing

Manage me, I'm a mess

Turn a page, I'm a book

Half unread

I wanna be laughed at

Laughed with, just because

I wanna feel weightless

And that should be enough

But I'm stuck in this fucking rut

Waiting on a second hand pick me up

And I'm over, getting older

If I could just find the time

Then I would never let another day go by

I'm over, getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend

But it's gonna be my year

And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere

And this is my reaction

To everything I fear

Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here

Make believe that I impress

That every word

By designTurns a head

I wanna feel reckless

I wanna live it up, just because

I wanna feel weightless

Cause that would be enough

If I could just find the time

Then I would never let another day go by

I'm over, getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend

But it's gonna be my year