My Messed Up Life

Logan Brent Gaskarth/My Uncle Is Who?

I woke up knowing what I had to do.

I took a shower, got dressed and braided my hair.

I then got up and wrote a note to ATL:

Dear Zack, Rian, Alex, and Jack,
I am so sorry for all the pain and chaos I have caused you. I just loved all 4 of you so much, you were my family and I screwed it up. I'm writing this in hope that one of you (probably Zack or Rian) will be smart enough and read this. I'm writing this to tell you that I have chose the one I love the most and I am leaving, I'm going to stay with PTV for a few days until they can get me home then I'm gone, you'll never have to see me again. I'm going home and I'll still buy your merch and support you but I won't go to concerts. I'm writing this to tell Alex I'm sorry for screwing your life up and hurting Jack, and to tell Jack that I love you so much that it hurts me to write this but I pick Austin, I guess it's because of this baby but I wrote this note so I won't have to be here and witness the pain I've caused or watch as I kill you mentally even though I've done so much already.
Sincerely,
Sierra.

I left it on the counter and packed my bags as I texted Chloe what I did. Then I walked over to the PTV bus and everyone looked at me shocked but Vic, he was still a little hurt.

"Hey, Sierra, is it okay if I give my baby to you like you adopt it from me? Please? I don't want a child and you're going to be a great mom" Chloe asked me.

"Is Vic okay with you giving me your baby?" I asked.

"I haven't told him, but he shouldn't care because he loves you anyway" she replied.

"But he also loves you" I retorted.

"True but I love Alex and I'm dating Alex so it doesn't matter, and plus you already have Mexican blood in your baby so technically you're not lying about them being related. I just don't think I can take care of a baby" she convinced me.

"Okay, fine. I'll take your baby" I replied.

~~~~magical time skip~~~~

It's now June 1st and warped tour is beginning. We decided to wait until Warped tour went to Jacksonville for the first time to take me home.

We took Chloe to the hospital today because her baby is due tomorrow.

Vic and I stayed the night with her to keep her company.

"So you're pregnant?" Vic finally spoke up after Chloe fell asleep.

"Uh, yeah" I muttered.

"Well you and Chloe told us that you were moving in because you were pregnant and you've already caused ATL too much pain, but you never told us who the dad was Sierra, who is the baby's dad?" he asked.

"I didn't say it before because I've already hurt you all so much and I don't want to hurt you more and that's what this will do, hurt you. But since you must know, it's your brothers, its Austins and I chose him as the one I love the most. But remember the baby influenced my choice" I explained.

"Oh, it's his, I figured it was Jacks but didn't know why you left and now I do, you know ATL will be here tomorrow when the baby is born right?" he asked.

"Yeah I know and I figured that it will be you, Alex and I in the delivery room because well, you know it's your baby, alexs girlfriend and my bestfriend and baby" I explained.

"Wait, your baby?" He asked.

"Yeah I guess Chloe didn't tell you, she's giving the baby to me because she don't want kids and she doesn't feel capable to take care of a baby, but tomorrow, I'm afraid because Alex is pissed at me and I don't want him to see me and get pissed, and start shit" I explained.

The next morning ATL came to the hospital and we didn't even talk to each other, Alex, and Jack didn't even look at me.

I could see Jack breaking, dying.

I got to see Chloe give birth to an amazing baby boy which her and Alex named Logan Brent Gaskarth. Once the baby was born she told Alex and Vic that she was giving the baby to me. And we are about to fill out all the adoption papers. About 2 hours later the baby was mine.

Chloe had to stay another night and I decided to stay with her. the next morning the doctor came in and told Chloe how to take care of herself and told me the basics about the baby. Then I went and found him and took him and Chloe back to the PTV bus.

All the guys helped me with the baby, especially Austin.

He is such a cute baby and he's really good, he doesn't really cry a lot, giving us all time to sleep. Sometimes he does and we all take turns taking care of him.

His favorite of all of us is Jaime because well who's isn't?

Jaime just walks in front of him and he starts laughing. Sometimes he cries and we can't get him to stop so Jaime picks him up and he stops. His second favorite is Chloe because it's his real mom.

"Chloe, he loves you, I think he knows you're his mommy" I said.

"Yeah but I-I just can't take care of him and being on tour all the time isn't good for a baby and I can't stay in one place for too long and that's what a baby needs" she explained.

"I know, and it's fine, you're just lucky to have a nice enough friend who'll take your baby. You know I go home in a month and then your baby will be gone in a month" I informed her.

"I know and I'm going to miss you both so much" she said as she picked Logan up and kissed his head.

"I can tell you didn't really want to give him up, even though you didn't want kids you had him and now you love him" I explained.

"Yeah but I'm not capable, I'm only 13" she explained.

She gave me Logan back and I hugged him and kissed his head then put him back in the bed.

"What are we going to do without you in the band?" She asked.

"Danae is an amazing singer, get her to join the band" I answered.

"But we'll all miss you, and what about Austin?" She asked.

"I'm not sure, I guess he'll just have to stay here with you all and stay with his brothers and be in the band until we're old enough to move in together and he can come home to me and the baby well I guess Babies" I explained.

"Sierra, I have one more question. Where are you going to go? Your parents disowned you all because Jack slipped up and said he loved you, just a simple 'I love you' and now you're pregnant" she asked.

"I'm not sure, my parents will flip, I guess I'll just have to find a relative who will take me in" I answered.

I then began my research on my moms family once Chloe left.

I don't know much about my Grandmother on my moms side. I actually found out that I'm lucky and I'm related to an ex band member.

I began to flip, I fangirled so hard.

My Uncle is famous.

He's like a legend.

He's all my band friends' idols/inspirations, well 1/4 of the band.

He's amazing.

He's from Mötley Crüe

He's Nikki.

Nikki Sixx is my Uncle.