My Messed Up Life

What Have I Done

I wake up with my head in Brians chest and his arms wrapped around me. I try to crawl over him to get out the bunk but he woke up and sees me and pulls me down on top of him. My eyes widen and I start to awkwardly and quickly slide off of him and out the bunk. I go in the bathroom and take a quick shower and get dressed in a Sleeping With Sirens shirt, pink skinnys, pull on my galaxy vans, and tie my hair up in a high pony tail with my bangs pulled down and swept over my eye. I go and check on Brian. Awwww he fell asleep again and he's so cute when he's sleeping. I walk into the kitchen and Stephens the only one up.

I start to make myself some breakfast and Stephen spins me around and kisses me. I'm shocked and don't know whether I should kiss back or not. Of course I kiss back, his lips are to irresistible. I pull away and he looks at me hurt.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have kissed you, ill just leave" he said turning away.

"No Stephen don't leave!" I yelled as I pulled him back in for another kiss.

What am I doing, I kissed Brian last night and now Stephen. I love them, both of them, so what do I do now. I have to leave, I have to talk to someone about this, I just need to talk about it.

I walk over to the PTV bus to talk to Vic, I just have to have him hold me and comfort me.

He sees me and runs over to me .

"Hey Sierra what's up?"

"Uhh Vic, I need someone to talk to"

"What's wrong? I'm here" he reassured me.

"Last night Brian was talking to me and then he kissed me, then this morning Stephen kissed me and when I looked surprised he went to leave so I stopped him by kissing him, and now I don't know what to do"

"It will all be ok, I promise" he comforted me.

He held me and I looked up at him and hugged him just for being there. I've never had anyone there for me before, I have friends but everytime I talk to them they say its not a big deal and I'm over reacting and I shouldn't self harm.

I release and look at him and say "Thank you, uh Vic can I stay on the bus with you all? I don't want to go back to the TSS bus"

"Yeah sure, ill sleep on the couch so you can sleep in my bunk"

I hugged him and went to get my things. I only grabbed a bag with only two outfits, and my pajamas, I'm only going to stay for two days, I don't want to invade their privacy and space.

I went into the bathroom and took a shower and put on my pajamas. I went into the living room and watched movies with Vic since everyone else went to their bunks and I didn't feel like sleeping yet. Vic was sitting on one end of the couch with his legs laying across the rest of the couch, while I picked up his legs and sat at the other end and layed his legs on me. He sat up and looked at me confused.

"Hey Vic, I'm not really tired right now and figured I'd come watch movies with you"

"That's fine" he replied and moved his legs off the couch so I had more room, and motioned for me to come closer.

I slid my ass over the coushions to Vic. He put his arm around me to pull me closer and I layed my head on his chest as we watched whatever movie was on.

I woke up with a blanket over me and Vic was gone. I got up and went to change into my PTV Collide With The Sky shirt and my dark burgundy skinnys with of course my galaxy vans and my hair tied up with pieces down, over my eye. As I walked passed the bunks I saw Vic sleeping in his bunk. God he's so fucking hot, but so is Brian and Stephen. What the fuck is wrong with me.

I went into the kitchen to make some cereal for myslef. I sat down on the couch and watched Coroline as I ate my cereal. After my cereal I went to put up the dishes and Vic popped up out of nowhere and said

"Good morning Sierra. I see you slept well"

I dropped the bowl and spoon. At least it wasn't glass. As I try to clean up the mess Vic reached down to help. After its all clean and we go to stand up, and our face are inches from eachother and we both blush and take a few steps back. He went to put the bowl up and tripped, falling on top of me. I just looked into his gorgeous eyes and couldn't help but to blush and laugh awkwardly. He just looked at me and I could tell he wanted to kiss me by the way he was looking at my lips, but he knew he shouldn't because of what's already happening with Stephen and Brian.

I just can't help myself, band members are just so fucking hot. So I did it. I kissed him.