I ran as fast as my legs will carry me, Which took me like 15 Minutes yo to get there. When I get to the MIW bus all I hear is screaming and yelling.
"How could you hurt her, and get het smoking, I love her and you're running her life written cigarettes and more stress"
"Ricky you're my bestfriend and you know I love her so why'd you fucking kiss her?"
"Come on guys maybe there's a missunderstanding or something"
"Stop getting pissed at Rick maybe it's not his fault but that bitch Samantha's"
"Ryan shut the fuck up its not her fault"
What's happening? I mean I kind of know.
I walk in knowing no one will actually let me in if I knock. I walk in to see my sister crying in the corner, Balz and Jess beating the shit out of Ricky. Balz has a few marks on his face, that looks like Ricky might have punched him. Ghost is in a different corner trying to ignore them, Chris is trying to Balz off of Ricky amd Ryan is trying to pull Jess off.
When I walk in every one turns to look at me. Balz looked guilty, upset and sorry. Jess looked completely shocked and sorry.
"Sierra, I-"
"Jess, how could you do this. You know how I feel about Ricky and it doesn't natter how pissed off I am, I still fucking love him and you go beat the shit out of him. I know I mean a lot to you beacause I'm like your sister but this hurts me worst" Tears began streaming down my face.
"Wait, you love me? " Ricky asked after Chris and Ryan got Balz, Jess and Ricky to separate.
"Well I don't know if I could call it love but I do know that whenever I think about you I smile like an idiot and get giggley, when I'm around you my stomach flips and my heart flutters and when you and my sister kissed I died inside. But you don't love me, and even if you did, you shouldn't waste your time on me, I'm already in love with 5 other guys and you'll only get hurt" Everyone was surprised at my comment and that I am full on sobbing.
"Sierra, I didn't kiss her, I don't love her, I don't even like her like that. I don't like her more than a friend, but I love you"
"No, youre lying, you have to be. You cant love me not based off of what happened, and i can't trust you. But judt please, don't love me. I can't have anymore people love me"
"I can't help it Sierra, I just love you and you have to believe me"
"Ricky I just, I can't"
I ran, I ran to the TSS bus and grabbed my clothes. I can't stay here because Jess loves me and just beat the living shit out of a guy I love. Where I'm headed, I'm not sure. I can't stay Aust the PTV bus anymore because Austin is there and the whole drama with Chloe being pregnant. I can't go to the ATL bus anymore because of what happened last time and then Jack wanting it to mean more than it did, and that can't happen again. I didn't want to barge into the 5SIS, P!ATD, or SWS bus and intrude on their privacy. And I don't really know BMTH, BVB, or OM&M. But I have to go somewhere.
I packed up all my things and ran out the bus. I have nowhere to go, maybe I'll call one of my friends to come get me. But I'm not really super close to any of my friends. And I'm not super close to anyone else on tour.
Where do I go? What do I do? Now what happens?
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My Messed Up Life
FanfictionI've always wanted to meet my favorite bands and band members, never have I wanted it to go like this, with me all screwed up and suicidal in a hospital with nurses and doctors watching me so I don't, like, die.
