My Messed Up Life

I Make It Worst By Drinking Late

We went back on tour which is really just different little rock festivals. And I'm with everyone, all my family and friends.

At all the festivals my band performed along with the others and it was amazing. Chloe finally told the fans about the baby even though they already new because they're ninjas when it comes to stalking, but the fans cheered and congratulated her.

In every band there is at least one OTP/ship and I'm guessing in our band that was Austin and I, and I should have seen this coming sooner or later.

The fans yelled at us to kiss.

I did not want to kiss him. I mean I did but MIW was about to go on, on the stage next to us once we were done and then ATL were going on, on our stage when MIW is done. So Jack and Ricky were on the sides watching us.

I didn't want to upset the fans so we did, we kissed and a fourth of the crowd cheered while one fourth called out "JEWERRA!" Which I'm guessing is Jewely and I's ship name.

Jewely looked scared and nervous because she didn't want to. But she went with it and we kissed, of course for like a second.

That leaves half the fans satisfied and the other half not. Half of the unsatisfied fans yelled out "JIERRA" for Jack and I to kiss. And then the last part of the fans wanted to see proof of their OTP Rickerra and yelled for Ricky and I to kiss.

I kissed them all just for the fans.

After that one show it happened at every show.

I'm finally living my dream, I might only be 15 but I'm living my dream. Other than living my dream everyday I also get to kiss 3 of the people I love everyday.

Touring has definitely been hard but I made it and I still am making it.

The only downsides to touring is that I get to watch my life go by as I do what I want and make fans happy while I watch as I'm breaking and killing the guys I love and can't do anything about it because if I do then I'll break and kill the fans. Also I see my bitch and slit of a sister everyday. Either she's fucking Ashley or trying to fuck Andy, Oli, Kellin, Alex, Ricky, Brian, Stephen, Austin, Vic, Jack or Jess.

Recently I've gotten close to Chris, Austin Carlile, and Jeremy McKinnon. Chris is a close friend, someone I can tell anything and everything to, Jeremy is a great friend, he's always there for me when I need him, and Austin C. he's my best friend. Since I've gotten close to them Samantha thinks she can do anything to ruin our friendships.

I go out to hang with Ricky, Austin F., Vic, Brian, Stephen, Jess, Jack, Austin C., Chris, and Jeremy a lot and were always posting pics on Instagram and Twitter. One night we had Austin Fuentes, Austin Carlile, and Jeremy come over to the ATL bus and I was going through my social media and something came over me and I began reading all the comments.

"Omg you're a whore"

"Slut, how many guys have you slept with? At least 10 by now"

"Do you sleep with every guy you meet?"

"Why do these guys love you, you don't deserve to be loved, they could do so much better than you"

I couldn't take it anymore so I joined everyone else and grabbed a can of beer and chugged it. You would think that I would've learned my lesson by now but I haven't.

I got drunk. like piss drunk.

I woke up in the morning and I didn't even open my eyes because I didn't feel like waking up and having to deal with the world and life so I kept my eyes close until suddenly I got sick. I felt like my insides were having world war 3 or something and I jumped up and ran to the bathroom to throw them up.

What? I've gotten drunk like twice before and it was definitely worst than this but I didn't feel sick. I've never thrown up after drinking.

I can hold my liquor.

I finally realized I was naked after sitting next to the toilet for about 10 minutes. I went over to my bunk to get my clothes and realized someone was there. I slept with someone again.

I really need to stop drinking because every time I do I sleep with someone.

I looked at the person and realized it was Austin Fuentes my best friend and guy I love.

Fuck. I screwed up again.

I grabbed my clothes and ran back to the bathroom and called the only person I could think to call.

Chloe

{Don't you love what I wrote XD oh and the title of the chapter is from King For A Day by PTV ft. Kellin Quinn}