"Sierra these are amazing I love them" Austin exclaimed.
"Thanks Austin" I replied and smiled.
"I'm the only one here who isn't related to a band member, so where the fuck do we start?"
"Well we have lyrics that we all like and agree on, so we have to work on the instruments" Chloe answered.
"Okay, well I'm not sure how bands do this, but I know that I am not good with writing music. I mean I know how to and how to read it but I can't. How about we all write music for our own instruments, we have lyrics so I'll p work on how I'm going to sing it and get the rhythm and tempo and all and then we write music" I said more as a question.
"I think that will work, but Sierra, if you're going to play guitar in this song, you do realize that you'll have to write music right?" Austin asked
"Uh, yes, and that is why your are going to help me, and then we can also work together on finding lyrics for you to scream and Chloe to sing"
"Sounds great" Chloe and Asutin said in unison. Damn they are like fucking twins, which is creepy because Chloe and I are like twins. We're like triplets. Ew I like my triplet.
We all left and went to our 'homes'. I went to the TSS bus and sprawled out on the couch.
"Had a long day" Jess asked. She is so sweet, and caring she's the closest friend I have and sometimes she makes me think of Kaylum.
I need to go visit Austin Carlile. I'll do it tomorrow.
"Kind of, thanks for asking" I replied after realizing that I had been in thought to long.
"No problem babe" She replied with a smile and a small laugh.
My phone sang "Don't wanna be an American idiot" indicating I had a text. What now?
Unknown: Hey :)
Me: I'm sorry, who is this??
Unknown: Oh sorry, its me Ricky
I immediately put his number into my phone.
Me: RICKAYYYY!! heyy ^-^
Ricky: Are you busy right now?
Me: Ummm no, I'm just sprawled out on a couch and we don't have a show today
Ricky: Ok because I wanted to see if you wanted to go for a walk with me
Me: Sure, I'd love too. plus going for a walk with you will help me get away from everyone so I can actually smoke XD ^-^
Ricky: So I'm guessing you still have that pack I gave you?
Me: Yep, I've only smoked like 1 or 2, I'm never left alone, and plus I wanna do things
Ricky: Ok so, meet at the big tree infront of the buses?
Me: Yeah, now?
Ricky: Yeah
Me: K
I quickly fixed my hair because its gotten all messed up. I tell Jess I'm going for a walk so they don't worry.
As I approach the big tree I see Ricky with two guys and a girl. The girl grabs Ricky and kisses him. I couldn't really see who it was because it was starting to get dark. All I knew was it hurt me, I don't know why, but it hurt. I began to cry and I see one of the other guys, he looks upset and punches the tree. He runs off and I was completely confused and upset and pissed. Ricky looks over and sees me. He starts to run towards me but I run away.
I don't know where I'm going but I run. I find myself at a park, the park Ricky and I went to when we first hung out and he got me to smoke. I pulled out my pack and lighter, I lit one and took a hit. It felt so good to smoke, it relieves stress and makes you forget everything. It's like cutting but leaves no evidence.
Why the fuck are you smoking? you always said you'd never do this or any drugs.
I know, I said I would never smoke anything or do drugs, but I've gotten myself so deep into shit that I can't get out and now its all I have to help.
What the hell am I suppose to do now? I'm becoming this monster I promised the little 5 year old me I would never be.
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My Messed Up Life
FanfictionI've always wanted to meet my favorite bands and band members, never have I wanted it to go like this, with me all screwed up and suicidal in a hospital with nurses and doctors watching me so I don't, like, die.
