My Messed Up Life

My Two JB's

The only best friends I have are ATL and PTV, I don't even have any close friends at home, just a million fake friends and people I know. I absolutely do not want to go to either the PTV or ATL bus, but I have no choice.

On the ATL bus I have Alex who's like a brother to me, Jack who's my best friend, and then Zach and Rian who are closer to me and are always there for me.

On the PTV bus there's Austin who's my bestfriend and always has been,  Chloe who's my bestfriend and can relate to me. There's Danae who's an amazing friend and I'm super close to, Jaime, Mike and Tony kind of treat like I'm their sister and are always there for me and care for me. Then there's Vic who's a great friend that makes mistakes.

Fuck it I'll go to ATL, I've been to PTVs too much. I might even alternate buses.

I go to the ATL bus and just thinking about what's happening and all that's happened since I've been here just made me start crying. I knocked my usual knock which was the beat of Somewhere In Neverland.

Jack came to the door, "Hey, Sierra why are you crying?" He looked down and saw my bags. "Sierra, did you run away from TSS again?"

"Yes, but Jack I can't take it, I just can't fucking take it" I began to cry harder.

"Why'd you run off?" He sounded so concerned and worried about me which makes me like him more.

"I don't want to talk about it right now" because in all honesty I don't feel like doing or saying anything.

"Okay but can you at least tell me why'd you come here instead of PTV?"

"Because I feel closer to you four and I'm always over there" I responded. "Now Jack if you can't already tell, I'm very fucking upset, so please open the God damn door"

"Right sorry" He moved out the way so I could go inside, as soon as I got inside he pulled me into a hug and let me cry into his shirt. Alex came out from the back to see what's going on.

When he sees me he goes over the basic questions which Jack had already asked so Jack tells him what I've told him so then he hugs me. ATL is really like a family to me.

After we all relax for a few hours and watch home alone I tell them what happened.

"So, you see Ricky kiss your sister and Balz was pissed and you tell Jess and she freaks out and her and Balz beat the shit out of him?" Rian asked clarifying it.

"Yep"

"Wait, Ricky loves you too?" Alex asked, seeing why it's so stressful.

"Yup, he does"

"Wait wait wait, Jess, like the female drummer of TSS, loves you?" Asked Jack which sounded like he was aggravated and annoyed yet shocked there's two more people are fighting for me and one's a girl.

"Yes Jack"

"Wow that's just-" Rian began.

"-Weird" Zach finished. "You can stay as long as you'd like" He said what everyone was thinking.

"And it's not because we feel bad for you, or think you need to stay here, it's because we want and would love for you to stay with us" Rian added.

"Thanks guys, I love you all, you're all like my brothers" I said and smiled as we group hugged. Jack looked a bit upset.

We realeased after a few moments and Jack got up and went to the back.

"Jack? are you okay?" I said as I followed behind him.

"You think of all of us as your brothers?" he asked a bit hurt.

"I think of Alex, Rian and Zach as my brothers. You on the other hand, I love you more than family"

"I'm sorry I've been giving you shit"

"Jack it's okay, really, you were pissed beacause almost having sex didn't mean the same to me as it did to you, and you were jealous I liked another guy. But I forgive you, I understand,  somewhat" I replied and giggled. I then leaned up to reach his 6'2 height from my height of 5'8 and kissed him.

I wrapped my arms loosely around his neck. God I love kissing Jack, it always feels amazing. I love him so much, and he's my bestfriend. He started to laugh into the kiss.

I pulled away for a moment and asked "Why are you laughing weirdo?"

"Because you're so cute, and the way you kissed me was adorable" He replied, the smile on his lips never faded.

"Well I can't help it that I'm shorter than you"

"Very true, and since you're shorter than me, you can reach my dick easier" He began to chuckle.

"Uh, thanks for the offer but um, no thank you" and I playfully punched him in the arm.

"I love you Sierra"

"I love you too Jack, I really do, please believe me, but I love other guys too and I just can't choose right now"

"I know, I know you tell me almost everyday, I just want you to pick me, but if you don't I completely understand"

"Jack Bassam Barakat do not make me feel bad as a way of picking you, and you know me, you know that if you do that I will pick you. You also know that I can't pick because then I'll feel bad for not choosing the others, and I want to make everyone happy"

"I know I know, at least I tried"

"Yeah, I have to give you credit for trying"

We messed around all day until it was time for the show. I know I have to perform with TSS but I can do that,  it's just two songs.

When we got to the venue BMTH were finishing their last song of the day, Antivist. Now it was ATLs time, they did a few songs then it was my turn to go sing with them. Then PTV, SWS, and I sang along to my usual songs and now TSS, they always open with Boomerang.

I finally got through it and now MIW goes on. A few minutes later they come off stage and I meet up with Balz.

"So Balz, what's up? And what are we going to do?"

"Um, actually what I was planning was to come up with a plan to get them back"

"My sister, and Ricky? What are we going to do?"

"I was thinking that we could uh, I don't know, make them jealous by kissing" He replied nervously and awkwardly.

"Kiss who? Each other? Actually, Balz, That's perfect"

"So do you want to do it today or tomorrow?"

"Well, my friend,revenge and jealousy can never wait, let's do it tonight" I said quite mischievously.

We walked out in front of the venue where my sister and MIW were and we walked up close enough to them and began to laugh kind of loudly so they'd look at us.

"Bye Balz" I said as I hugged him.

"Bye Sierra" He hugged me back and then looked down at my face, I leaned up not really far since we're about the same height. Then our lips connected and we kissed for a few minutes to make it believable.

"Night Mr.Balz"

"Night Ms.Sierra" And with that he headed over to MIW and I, to the ATL bus.

Well today was interesting wasn't it?