Sierra's POV
Its now October and Logan's 4 months and my baby girl, Liana Alexis Fuentes, is almost here. She is Due on October 20th which is in only a week. And I'm ready to fucking pop. My stomach is huge. I can't see my feet or even feel them. I can't get comfortable when I sleep, whenever I actually do get some sleep.
~~~~~~~~~ Oct. 20th. ~~~~~~~~~
I just had my beautiful baby girl and now I'm holding her while Nikki Sixx, my uncle, is sitting next to my hospital bed holding Logan.
All the couples stuffed themselves in my room. There is Chloe and Alex, Devonya and Andy, Danae and Oli, and Jewely and Kellin. Of course there is my family piled into my small room also, Vic, Mike, Tony, Jaime, Austin F., Rian, Zack, Jeremy, Austin C., Aaron, Phil, Tino, Hayley, Josh, Justin, Jack F., Gabe, Nick, CC, Jinxx, Jake, Chris, Balz, Ryan, and Ghost.
Chloe and Alex played with Logan.
A week later everyone is still here for me but they began to look super depressed and the depressing vibe began to rub off on me.
"Ok so what the hell is going on here? You are all obviously depressed, what happened? Tell me now" I demanded after I put L.A. and L.B. down for a nap.
"Well, actually, Jack is in a hospital" Alex trailed off about to cry.
"To be specific, the mental hospital" Tony added.
"He's been in there since the day after you left" Justin chimed in.
"Wait why? Please just tell me why?" I asked on the verge of tears.
"He was so depressed that you had chosen Austin over him, was having Austins baby, and that you left so he uhh ..." Austin Carlile trailed off
"So he uhh, attempted suicide" Jeremy finished.
"Again" Josh whispered.
"He-he w-what?" Tears started building up in my eyes.
"Yeah but he's alive" CC added in a weird voice trying to make me feel better.
"W-who found him? W-who saved him? W-who p-put him in the h-hospital?" I asked as a single tear inched down my face.
"I-I found him?" Hayley answered.
"She was with me, Devonya, Danae and Oli" Andy added.
"And so the five of us ... well Andy and I saved him while the girls were scared" Oli finished.
"Then Alex and Chloe" put him in the hospital a random voice answered.
I swung around to see 5SOS and Erin finally made it. I realized Luke had answered me.
"You guys made it" I said quietly.
"Yeah, we couldn't miss seeing the cute little baby" Erin said.
"But um, c-can I s-see him? P-please" I asked as the rest of my tears raced down my cheeks.
"That wouldn't be the best idea" Jewely said.
"W-why? I asked.
"He's doing so well and I think that if he sees you then..." Danae began.
"Then he'll become suicidal again" Devonya finished barely audible.
"Oh, ok" I stated. "well it's 5 and I need to start making dinner because I promised Nikki Si- I mean uncle Nikki that I'd make dinner tonight" I stated and went into the kitchen. I saw the case of blades and I've been flighting myself for so long and my determined side is winning so I've been clean for a while but now. Now I don't know. I was looking at them and went to hold my old friend to remind my self of the troubles it's caused me when I heard someone coming.
"Hey, what are you doing? You know you aren't suppose to be cooking?" Jewely appeared.
"Oh, right" I stated and walked off letting Jewely cook.
I went into my room and grabbed my pills from the side drawer. I wonder, which one should I take? Which one do I need more? My anxiety, depression, bi-polar, or headache pills?
Jewely's POV
We all knew she shouldn't be cooking, she needs to rest and answer the kids needs so I went to cook.
"Hey, what are you doing? You know you aren't suppose to be cooking?" I said walking into the kitchen.
She jumped a bit at first then replied "oh, right" then she left.
I looked through the kitchen to find what we would have then I decided to just make a country styled dinner: fried chicken, mashed potatoes and green beans. After I got out all the ingredients and materials I went to tell Kellin that someone needs to check on her because she seems a bit off since we told her about Jack.
"Hey Kell?" I asked.
"Hey baby, what's up?" He questioned.
"Someone needs to check on Sierra, she seems a bit off" I replied.
"Yeah, I've noticed that since we told her about Jack" then he left.
Kellin's POV
Hey Kell?" Jewely asked walking up to me.
"Hey baby, what's up?" I questioned.
"Someone needs to check on Sierra, she seems a bit off" She replied obviously concerned.
"Yeah, I've noticed that since we told her about Jack" I replied then left.
"Yo Chlo, and Alex, can you guys go check on Sierra, she doesn't seem right" I asked her bestfriend and brother.
"Yeah sure" Alex looked at Chloe and went up stairs to her room.
Alex's POV
"Yo Chlo, and Alex, can you guys go check on Sierra, she doesn't seem right" Kellin asked us.
"Yeah sure" I looked at Chloe first and then went up stairs to her room.
Chloe knocked on her door but she didn't answer so we got worried and opened the door to see Sierra strewn all over her bed with four pill bottles spilling on her bed. Her eyes began closing.
Chloe ran over to check her pulse to make sure she's still ok for the moment and I went to look at the bottles. All were prescriptions and luckily they gave the dosage and date given out. She just got them yesterday and only takes them once a day each and there's about 50 in each bottle but only about 25 left in each. Then we noticed she had a blade in her hands and so we checked her arms and legs about 15 cuts on each wrist and thigh.
Chloe started crying and trying to get Sierra to wake up as I called 911.
It may seem like I'm calm but honestly I'm panicking, I can't take another one I love in trouble or ... dead.
[A/N so I'm sorry you guys, I got kinda stuck ... but I finally figured it out]
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My Messed Up Life
FanfictionI've always wanted to meet my favorite bands and band members, never have I wanted it to go like this, with me all screwed up and suicidal in a hospital with nurses and doctors watching me so I don't, like, die.
