My Messed Up Life

The Journey's Only Beginning

Sierra's POV

Ricky is super nice, he convinced me to tell him why I was upset, not that it takes much to convince me, and he was really caring.

"Everything will be ok, everything will  work itself out"

"Are you sure?" I questioned, still upset.

"I'm sure" he smiled.

I explained how stressed out I was because of all of this. And he could tell how stressed I was, because i was speaking fast and I was shaking, but wasn't scared.

"Have you ever smoked before?" He questioned.

"No"

"Would you like to try it? I know you're young, but honestly, If you don't give a fuck, then I don't give"

"Yes please" I somewhat begged, if there's anything that can calm me down other than cutting, I'll do it.

"Well here, try mine, I'm not going to light up a new one and have you waste it, if you dont like it" He said laughing at his own selfish joke. "Don't try to swallow it, just breathe in through your mouth, and remove the cigarette" He helped me, since I didn't know what I was doing.

"Thanks Ricky" I smiled and took another puff.

"You're welcome Sierra, so how old are you, exactly? just curious"

"Well you probably should of asked that first before giving me the death stick" I giggled. "I'm 15"

"Nice, I just gave a 15 year old a death stick, I feel accomplished" He chuckled a bit.

"Hey uh, Ricky? Can you give me another one? A full one?"

"You're really stressed out huh? yeah here" He said pulling out another and giving it to me. I put it in my mouth as he lit it for me.

We went to a little park, that looked deserted, and sat on a bench. We talked about life, our problems, the things we've been through, and we smoked. He talked more since he's been alive longer, and went through more. He told me to just ignore it, ignore everything. The Vic, and Chloe thing was just a little thing, things happen. If she was my closest and best friend, then I can get over it.

"Hey we should get going, it's kinda late" I suggested

"Yeah, hey you might need this" He said tossing me a full, unopened pack of cigarettes. "I have my opened pack, and plus I can just buy another, and you can't buy them, youre not old enough" He chuckled.

"Thanks" I said, as I caught them. We walked back. once we got to the buses we hugged and went our seperate ways. He went left, and I went right.

I hid the 'gift'  Ricky gave me, everyone would flip if they saw them, and might kill Ricky because they're super, super protective of me. I layed in the bunk and texted Chloe. I really need to talk to her.

Me: Hey chlo, uh, I'm sorry I was bitch. I was just upset, you'd understand if you were me. I just wanted to apologize

Chlo Bae <3: Thanks, I'm really sorry, and yeah I understand. its not like I wanted to get preggers, especially not by Vic XD

Me: XD yeah, I'm here for you, and the baby. I'm the wittle bayba's crazy aunt Sierra ^-^ :] XD

Chlo Bae <3: Thanks :)

I went To sleep, glad that today worked out a bit better. I was thinking about today and about what I wanted to happen tomorrow, and before I knew it, I drifted off into the dark, wonder, land (Ha, see what I did there, dream land is a land full of wonder XD I know I have no life)

I woke up to Brian and Stephen sounding scared, uncomfortable and nervous.

"Hey Samantha, uhh, your sister isn't up yet, why are you up so early?" Brian said.

"I just wanted to, you know, come to get to know you better" She said in a flirty tone.

"Why don't you wait for your sister" Stephen said.

"Because she won't let me talk to you"

"Uhh, can you like, back the hell off of my brothers, I kinda love them" Jess said in a half joking tone.

"Uhh, no"

"Samantha, what the fuck are you doing?" I said walking out into the front of the bus.

"I'm just talking to Brian, Stephen, and Jess"

"No, you're flirting with them. Well, they're not property, but I actually know them personally and I'm sure they want me to say this, so, they're mine, these two boys here are mine, and don't try to flirt with Jess either, she's mine as well"

"What the fuck ever" she said walking out the bus.

"I don't fucking like for you to fucking cuss, so don't ever fucking do it again, and be careful, no sex, drugs, or alcohol" everyone laughed at me, then hugged me.

I decided to go for a walk. I went to the main stage, the best place to go to relax. I heard amazing drums, so I ran over to it. I saw Jewely, she was playing the drums.

"Omg Jewely, that's amazing"

"Really?"

"Yeah" Right then I got an idea. I'm going to start my own fucking band. I just need a bassist, rythm guitarist and lead guitarist.

"Do you want to start a band with me?"

"What? like me, in an actual band? like my brother?"

"Fuck yeah, well of course we need others"

"Sure, but what are we going to call it?"

"Ummm what about, 6 Feet Under?"

"Did you just take that from an ATL song?" She laughed a bit.

"Yep I sure did, but I really like it, especilly because everyone either feels like they're 6 feet under everything or want to bury themselves 6 feet under"

"I agree, that's a perfect name, and you sound like you've felt like both before"

"Yeah I have, I think fans can also relate. I'm going to go find other members"

I walked away, I needed to find Chloe, even with her being pregnant she's got to be good at playing something, her brother is a bassist after all.