Intoxic Dose (Kaisoo)

Chapter 18 : Do you know now ?

He was still staring right back at me when I looked down at him wanting nothing more than to
Have him right here, right now . I was carving him .feeling something I've never felt before .

But before I could even lean down to him to let those plump lips met mine .
He stopped me .
His hand on my shoulder when he held me back gently .. as if he had snapped me out of it then .
,, j-jongin .. you don't understand this  .. you can't " 

I moved back at that frowning at him .. But he was gay as far as I rememberd he admitted that he had feelings before the beating before he forgot it all .

It was me who wasn't sure if I had feelings, hell I didn't even know I was gay for all that matter .I've only ever fucked girls in my life .

,, kyu-"
Before I could even continue he just slipped away rushing out through the door in a rush.

My hands moved up running through my messy hair .

What did I just do.. realizing my own sexuality , getting way too close to him. Making him run off and lastly getting rejected ..

I never thought that this day would come .
It felt like shit . Yet it just made me want him more.
What's wrong with him ?
He's not like the others, he's different  like a spark in the darkness of this world. And I wanted to hold onto it.
I needed to hold onto it.

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I was going to go after him but when I left the room I accidently bumped into someone. The smell of the perfume, the height and the weight let me know instantly that it must have been a woman .

She ended up falling back and I quickly reached out grabbing her on both her arms to pull her back to stand . A cracking was heard when the accessoiry from her hair landed on the ground .the long straight hair opened as she stared back at me in shock .

,, Mrs. Xiao?" I frowned retreating my hand and now looking at her expectantly . She looked younger with her hair open .. what's wrong with women always tying their hair together .

She clears throat brushing her open hair back awkwardly . gotta admit .. didn't know she could look this hot simply with open hair ..

,, ah .. jongin ."she chuckled again awkwardly. I would have laughed at this situation if I weren't the one in it as well .,, I em .. I actually came to bring you guys .your homework and the stuff you've missed "

,, isn't a student suppose to bring this stuff ?" She inhaled when she listened to that .turning her head she grabbed into her bag pulling out 2 folders
,, no one wanted to .. "

It didn't surprise me that no one wanted to bring me homework but I didn't understand why no one came for kyungsoo .,, what about kyungsoo ?"

,, There are the papers inside for both of you. The register shows you which subject it is . " again she grabbed in her bag pulling a small card out ignoring my question completely,, you and kyungsoo can always message me if you need any help with something ok " lastly she smiled holding the card further out to me .

Well then . It's not like we will anyway . A sigh fell from my lips when I took the card looking over her number on it .
,, prob not but ..thank you .. "

She smiled at me making me frown more at her . Especially when it went bigger after what I've said . You would think she just won a bet and couldn't wait for her price .
,, what ?"