Intoxic Dose (Kaisoo)

Chapter 21 : Seeking

I still stood straight looking down onto him while he kept smiling . And once he figured out I won't be able to say it back or say anything at all .his hand stretched out taking mine .
,, it's ok I know this is weird to you you don't need to accept it .. and i'm not expecting you to say it back ..
I just want you to know that i'm ready to wait for you " his smile softened a little when I felt him pulling on my hand .

I ended up sitting down besides him ready to reply but the doctor enterd. Cutting me off .

He told kyungsoo to sit back to lay his foot up but once his foot was revealed so openly and the doc moved closer , he started clutching my hand tightly as the doc started examing his cut tapping around it to check for whatever the fuck .
,, it actually doesn't look too bad . I was going to remove the stitches soon . How about we remove them now and wrapp a bandage around it ?" He glanced up at him and he only nodded back like a child wanting a plaster on their ouchie.

,, ok then shall we head to the treatment room ? Can you walk or should we take a wheelchair " even before kyungsoo could fully turn his head to me. I had my hands already under him picking him up with ease just like I did before .

The doctor smiled a little ,, or let you get carried " he joked and I looked to the side trying to play it off while kyungsoo giggled as always.

,, just tell us where to go " I snapped at him and he nodded still smiling friendly at us when he guided the way .

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,, you're cute " I almost flinched as kyungsoo whispers that into my ear .

,, shut up ..." he giggled once more at that .actually snuggling more into me .
His movements caused me too feel weird all over . I got goosbombs and my stomach .. is that really what they call butterflies in you're stomach ? .

,, here " the doc opened a door for us and I stepped inside walking towards the bed.

To be honest I kinda didn't want to sit him down because I felt myself liking him clinging to me like that . And I like holding him like that using the little weight he had as an excuse to hold him tight.

,, you can set him down here " the doc stepped in pulling the table closer with all the tools as he rolled with his chair towards the bed I sat him down on .

he let go of me slowly looking down onto his leg but my eyes stayed on him as he pouted watching it and the doctor closely

Only when the doc picked up a tool that's when I turned away to look at him and see what he will do next .
,, the wound is a bit torn so this might hurt I can inject something that will make the pain lessen "

I thought for sure kyungsoo would agree instantly judging by his childlike behavior and charackter but he didn't . Instead he shock his head quickly as if he was more afraid of a syring than the pain .

I looked back onto him in question but he didn't look at me instead his owl eyes were fixed onto the doctor who had explained how he was going to remove them now .

Once he was done his head turned to me again, he looked scared in a way so this time I didn't hesitate and just took his hand slowly . Gently holding it as if to tell him that he could squeeze my hand when the pain was too much.
And he sighed at that leaning back

,, ok I will start now "
Kyungsoo nodded closing his eyes and holding my hand tightly .maybe he didn't want to see how the stitches were removed and I couldn't blame him. Even I adverted my eyes and only looking at his face when the doc started. I didn't have problems with blood or wounds stitches and all that shit . Chat and the other they were always beating someone up while I should watch. By this was different because this time no one meant in .. right ? Yeah that's why it's different . Why else .

Kyungsoo surprisendly didn't react too much to it tho. He handled it pretty well his eyes were closed not squeezed and my hand he held but never squeezed . Examing him like I did I found myself staring at him somehow admiring him not knowing why . It's not just now that he had handled pain any other would've cried or at least whined at,but all in one .

I rememberd when I saw him getting bullied . How he smiled at me afterwards as if nothing had happened .
Where was the anger ? The pain ? The sadness ? . He never showed me any of those. Only when I had stolen the money from him when I had betrayed him, he broke yet it felt like he didn't reveal too much still, it looked like it but it didn't feel like it .

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,, jongin ?" I didn't respond when he called me from the other bedside .
It's night already and we bearly spoke. My back was facing him as he calmed me quietly.

Maybe he felt that I was somehow not in the mood or maybe he wasn't himself.
,, jongin "

I ended up turning to him afterall .
He didn't even look me in the eyes . He just looked down before quietly asking me,, d-did I do something wrong ?"

I shifted to turn fully to him blinking at him as I released a soft breath, he still didn't dare to look at me and it was somehow bothering me . It was like he was afraid of me and I didnt want that .
,, no ."

,, it's because of what I said right ?" Now he finally looked at me and I felt my heartbeat increasing . This wasn't normal he was affecting me way too much .,, I would except if you told me you don't like me in that way ..

but I know you do ..

we kissed and I know you liked it too. And I .. I don't regret telling you. I will wait if you don't want this yet or if you think it's too soon-"
My hand landed on his cheek to shut him up and he swollowed . Seeing him acting like this blushing and being nervous seemed to affect me in so many ways. it might not be obvious to The Eye but seeing him act like this .. being affected by me aswell was making me go crazy .

,, I'm not sure what to do with you .. And I don't know what I should do either .." I sighed removing my hand to stroke over my own face. And he ofcorse giggled softly at that .
,, I never met someone like you .. never thought someone like you even existed"

,, is that a good thing ?"
That was the question .. the big question .I couldn't decide wether I like how he was changing and affecting me or not .I can't answer this ..

So instead I shrugg my shoulder with a heavy sigh .
,, but do you feel something ?" He asked me moving closer .. usually I would say too close but I liked the fact that he wanted to move this close and that he just did it without hesitating .

His hand gently grabbed mine under the blanket as he intertwined oure fingers .
,, my brother always told me it would feel different once you fall too deep in love " he closed his eyes .

,, different?" We were both getting quieter .And I switched looking from his right closed eye to his left closed eye .
,, wheres your brother ?"

His Eyes Opened at that and he pulled our interwined hands up
,, he left .. "