The flat was cold by now from the cold wind from outside but also from the silence here, I had opened all the windows to release the smell . Threw the soaked mattress away and his dirty clothes aswell . I couldn't stand the blood mixed with puke . I just couldn't it was the same with all the pills and things from his drawers . I threw most of it away flushed it down the toilet and only put things like plasters and creams back .
I didn't want to see any pills right now.
Everything else the ground and so on I had now cleaned but he didn't move a single bit even when I was done and took a seat besides him to just watch him . He didn't move at all he did nothing but breath the slightest bit .
I had never wished for him to annoy me like he used to beforeeverything turned out like this as much as I had wished for it now .
Just smile at me you idiot ,
Look at me and tell me some weird things you'd like to do .
Like stare at the stars or
dance in the rain
Make some more flowercrowns now that you've taught me how or sing some Bruno mars shit and tell me how mean I was ..
,, where is he ?"
I had opened the door to sye Instead of chat I guess sye was better in medical care than him and he was too lazy to come himself .
I couldn't care less I didn't want him to come anyway all I wanted was help .
,, there "
He followed me until we've reached the couch and he got to his knees in front of him carefully grabbing under the blankets I had placed on him after it had gotten so cold . He pulled his arm out and threw me a frowned glance at the horribly applied bandages .
I didn't say anything getting down besides him as he let me hold the black bag of his . He opened it grabbing a sciccior and cutting the bandages away , his other arm .. is also .. "
He sighed understanding thankfully .
I watched as he got a pack of those soft tissues out and grabbed onto the water bottle wetening it just a little before he started dabbing the wound with it .
I sighed at the memory of sye treating his wounds in front of me. He put some stripes on called butterfly stitches so now there wasn't any bandage and the dropped skin was closed . The sunshine tattoo however wasn't as it used to be it was moved and even more uneven,
bearly recognizable .
I got up eventually turning to the kitchen to grab something to eat .
The fridge looked pretty empty maybe I should go and grabb some food for him too if he wakes up .. but I literly don't have any money. And the food we had cooked together , sye took it before he left thanking me cheekily acting as if I had actually readied it for him when I didn't ...
I turned back to kyungsoos room getting to his bag to find some money at least a little bit before I went through the books in the middle and then the bags on the side .
Like I said a little .. but this wasn't a little .. at least 200 bugs I found in the first old bag .
It came from his job I know yet It made a dark feeling creep it's way up my insides. I experienced this feeling whenever I thought about his job .
Whenever I came to the conclusion that his job isn't a normal one and the fact that I know nothing about it makes it even worse .
I swollowed clenching my jaw shortly before I grabbed the small money at least and headed back out of the room only to freeze in my steps .
The couch was empty and I felt like panicking for a second since I haven't even turned away that long for him to run away or do something stupid again i havent even heard the damn door not to mention his tiny steps
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Intoxic Dose (Kaisoo)
Fanfiction*?completed?* (( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension )) Merely a punk . That's all I was, an idiot telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the dr...
