Intoxic Dose (Kaisoo)

Chapter 34 : My Boyfriend

It was already pretty dark when we drove with the bus to the place where he was suppose to meet someone .
I didn't question him anymore and just followed him .

He didn't say anything anymore either . He tried to hold my hand but I didn't want . I didn't feel like holding his hand at the moment.
So we rather drove in silence but it wasn't awkward or anything . He seemed pretty lost in thoughts when he stared out the window looking at all the passing houses and eventually trees .

And I did the same somehow I also prepared myself for a fight whoever I was going to meet it will end with a lot of questions maybe even fightings.

Still ... He wouldn't introduce me to someone which he had cheated on or which he had used to cheat on me .
Or was he just out doing the same as his mother ? I can't imagen that . I won't. He's different in so many ways than his mother. I know he would never.

And if it had something to do with drugs ? Like I always had something to do with drugs ? What if I met another version of chat ?

I'm not in for another beating and hospital drama especially with my mum being gone now ...

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I frowned when kyungsoo nudged me with his elbow as the bus stopped and I lazily got up walking towards the door and getting out along with him before the bus closed its door and continued to drive .

It was in the middle of nowhere and it was dark . Who the hell would meet up here . All I saw were trees and a few street lights further away. The only sounds coming from the crickets by the sidewalk which would quiet down as soon as you stepped closer but continue when you took a step away again .

He held my arm to turn me around and I swear my blood turned cold when I was met with the sight of
a graveyard .

What on earth are we doing at a fucking graveyard . I frowned harder when he looked over the streets grabbing my arm to eventually cross it

,, kyungsoo"
he didn't respond leading me further into the graveyard in silence.
We were passing dozens of gravestones in all different sizes and shapes some of them being old enough to have plants grown over them actually a lot of them looked like that as if they have been forgotten ..

Thinking of it I have never actually been to the graveyard not even to my dad to visit him ...
Or ... to say goodbye
I haven't been to his funeral. I was too busy with going out and drinking, Yes that's when it kind of started, I mean all this... I didn't even know how my dad's gravestone looked like .

He stopped all of a sudden inhaling a deep breath before he turned around to look at me and I frowned down to him , he looked at me but not in the eyes , he roamed me from feet to finally hair as his hand reached out and he brushed his fingers through my hair as if fixing them before he went to my shirt straighting it out and fixing the collar of my jacket .

,, ok .." he smiled weakly taking my hand again and leading me further into the graveyard and only now stopping in front of one particular grave

Doh  jaehyun

That's all I needed to read that's all that was interesting to me .

,, hey dad "
My eyes landed on him again as he got to his knees smiling. it almost seemee as if he was ... happy ?

,,sorry i'm late .. and I couldn't bring you any flowers today .. I'll bring twice as much next time ok ?"  I glanced over all the colourful flowers compared to the other graves, who had looked like they've been abandoned and forgotten . It made me wonder how my dad's gravestone had looked like now but I don't think I would take it well visiting him like kyungsoo seems to be doing all the time ...