Cold ,
It was so cold
And I was falling, when I turned around I could feel it, the gravity how it pulled me further down . To reach the ground, yet I couldn't reach it.
I couldn't even open my eyes.
I wanted to reach the ground but I couldn't even tho my mind was telling me to continue falling it was like my body reacted on it's own and started grabbing despredly around in the air to stop myself from falling
Everything was shaking and falling apart and I didn't know what to do. I couldn't take it anymore I didn't want to
I wanted to stop falling
Yet I wanted to continue
,, huh !?" I gasped flinching awake as the bed continued to shake and I was alarmed imediantly as I sat up and turned to kyungsoo to hold him still .
He was shaking like crazy again and I groaned pulling him away from the bed edge to prevent him from falling down. He took fastened breaths and my mum suddenly opened the door in a rush .
,, jongin! Whats happening !?" She panicked rushing over to us with a terrified expression as she glanced over his shaking body .
,, he's seizuring bring some water " I simply orderd and she jumped up to her feet rushing away to do as I said .
,, shh it's ok .. just relax " I continued whispering soothingly to him while stroking over his arm as he laid in my lap and slowly I felt him calm . His shaking slowling down until only his tensed body laid in my lap , now and then twitching , his fingers were partly stretched out but also rolled into his palm .
Some steps appeard again and just as my mum showed up with a glass of water , his body suddenly stopped it's tensed stature and he went completely calm against me only taking heavy breaths as he blinked and now looked up at me with worried eyes before tears built in them when he realized he what had happened .
He turned his head to burry his face in my stomach and I let him , stroking over his hair and signing my mum to place the glass of water onto the table.
He usually gets thirsty after a seizure .
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The door shut quietly behind me when I turned around to face my mother.
She had her arms folded into each other and her expression had remained worried. After kyungsoo had cried a little , he managed to fall asleep again and I placed him fully down again to let him sleep , the water still being there for when he should feel thirsty
,, what just happened ?"
Her voice was unsteady and it actually made me chuckle . She seem3d in shock and confusion.
,, what are you laughing about !? Did that look funny to You!?" She whisper yelled and I just sighed brushing my hair back as my smile slowly faded into an empty smirk .
,, he has epilepsy, seizuring like that ,.. he does it now and then " it's funny how her facial expression turned to sadness and hurt , as if kyungsoo meant something to her but she bearly knew him , how could she .
And how was it that I was the only one who doesn't feel sadness over this sickness .
Don't get me wrong I don't like it and it's hertbreaking to see him crying after it , but he can't actually be crying from the pain but mere from the shock and the event. If people would have treated him like it's not that bad from the beginning then maybe he wouldn't react like that afterwards .
And it doesn't even happen that often. Maybe I'm just being insensetive again or maybe I was just trying to convince myself once more that he didn't need that dangerous surgery he so badly wanted.
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Intoxic Dose (Kaisoo)
Fanfiction*?completed?* (( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension )) Merely a punk . That's all I was, an idiot telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the dr...
