Intoxic Dose (Kaisoo)

Chapter 20 : What are We?

I sniffed moving my hand up to Stroke  over my nose when I felt it itching causing me to wake up .

I blinked a few times before actually sitting up . That's right yesterday me and him fell asleep against the wall and the window . In the middle of the night I woke up because of the uncomfortable position and with him still sleeping I ended up carrying him to bed. It wasn't the first time I did that so it wasn't really hard for me either. Still I couldn't help but notice as i always did ,how light he was ..

maybe it was just because he's small yet I know it wasn't because of his figure .. I still rememberd the peaking out rips of his and the nurse that called him underweight ..

Now however ... well
the bed was empty when I sat up .causing me to frown .
I stretched my arms out looking over to the other bed but he wasn't on that either so I guess the bathroom ?

Moving to the side and swinging my legs off the bed I pushed myself off and stood up, lazily walking over to the bathroom .
,, j-jongin ?"

I stopped at that ..
I dont see him but the quiet almost frightened voice of his i heard.
Soon the sound of movements in the shower appeard aswell.

Taking a few more steps to be close to it . I didn't dare to make another few . He's in the shower which meant he's naked and I sure as hell wouldn't just open the curtain to look at him.
Stop no don't image him naked wtf no stop !

,, j-jongin is that You?" He asked again .
And i frowned at his shaky voice

,, what ?" I decided to be curious and he moved a little again before releasing a pain filled breath .
,, kyungsoo ?"

A deep rough sigh left his lips causing my frown to harden and I was so close to just pull the curtain aside and see what was wrong ..
,, yah .. what's wrong ?"

He sniffed exhaling sharply almost in a hiss.
,, jongin .. I-i slipped and I didn't mean to-.. c-can you just give me a towel please ?"

I swollowed walking over to the drawer where the towels where in . What did he mean with, slip and not mean to .. to what ? .

I got back to the shower and carefully pulled the curtain slightlt aside whilw looking into another direction as I held his towel in and he grabbed it quieckly .

He kept releasing pained breaths grunts . Which he failed to suppress and I felt quite awkward just standing there not even being able to do anything really ... I was going to brush my teeth that's it .

But wouldn't it be weird if I just started brushing my teeth.
,, jongin ? " he called again sounding more out of Breath now .

My frown hardened as I swollowed somehow feeling the urge to just pull the damn curtains aside become stronger .,, yeah ?"

,, i-its hurts ... c-can You"
That was the final straw .I just took the remaining step forward and grabbed onto the fabric of the shower curtains pulling it aside to make him flinch even tho I didn't it slow and with an annoyed sigh

,,Yah !" He yelped holding the towel over his private area I guess .. I would have laughed at him turning into a tomato, if it weren't for the scars he wore  .

I noticed some when we first kissed on the car and almost took it further .
But it was night back then leaving me not seeing that much .
But here however it was bright enough to expose them .

Even the fat tattoo on his wrist .. I guess it was a tattoo sunshine.
The tatto was the nicest word on him .

Freak
Slut
Those were the only words I could read . There were a few lined up under his arms on his peeking out rips . That's what was even worse..
I couldn't read them because there were severel lines over them like you would cross a word on a paper . The words carved into him where crossed with more carves. 

Then besides his navel just obove the stitches . There was small line .. a short but fat line ...

A stab ?

,, stop ! " he moved his hands over it  and tried to hide the other scars with his arm. I didn't even show any further reaction when my eyes traveld downwards to his legs there I could see blood oozing out of the long cut that was stitched with so many stitches . It looked a bit ripped I guess because there was blood all around it swooping out aswell .

,, idiot .." I mutterd leaning forward and moving my hands under his legs and back he whinced at the sudden .when I started lifting him and he grabbed tightly onto the towel .
,, jongin !"

I ignored him walking out of the bathroom and into our actual room . He hissed probably from the air hitting his open skin. 

Setting him down onto the bed he kept his wide eyes on me as if he couldn't believe I just did what i did .but what else was I suppose to do I won't let the doctors come and help him when he's laying naked in the bathtub ..

I ended up turning to the little wardrobe and throwing an underwear and a pullover towards him . He poorly caught them and pulled the pullover over his head and down to wear it .

With his underwear however it was a little more difficult. And I watched him for a moment when he tried to move his legs through the holes .
They were quite slim and pale. His skin looked soft and I couldn't really spot any hair on his legs.

My body just moved on it's own as I went foreward and helped him .
He gasped quietly when my hands came in contact with his feet as I helped him move them through the underwear holes . Both of them being especially carefully with the bleeding one. 

I looked up to meet his wide eyes. Staring for a moment when my right hand rested on his knees while the other had stoped long before .
His skin was indeed soft almost like a baby's skin

Someone cleard their throat All of a sudden and we both flinched turning to the door where a nurse stood .
,, I'm sorry .. I didn't mean to interrupt"

I moved my hands hesitantly away from kyungsoos legs, shocked as i stood up .
Staring at him while he blushed and pulled his underwear the rest of the way up to wear it .not letting anyone have a peek on him when he did it with the towel laying still over his thighs

,, oh god I will call the doctor ok don't worry " kyungsoo must've already told her what happened and he nodded at her .

,, jongin? " I looked down to him and he looked nervously to the side .  Biting his bottom lip before turning back to me .
,, w-what are we ?"

I swollowed once not looking away from him mainly because i was thinking to myself .
I knew he was .. doing something to me . I knew he was changing me . A part of me wanted him more ,
a part of me enjoyed being with him and listening to all those wisely chosen words of his but the other one didn't like the change he's doing to me a part of me didn't want to lose the old me.

,, when I kissed you .. and asked you if you're sure of what you want you chuckled .. jongin .." he smiled up at me as bright as always and it made my insides flutter . No doupd bis smile was special .he giggled a little looking down when he confessed .

,, I like you "

[ I'm just checking if pictures work because in the past I had to do it with the compute but now it loads in my draft when I do it with phone so there's a picture of kyungsoo eating ..

[ ^ Can you see the picture ? ^ ]