Intoxic Dose (Kaisoo)

Chapter 9 : Irresponsible

,, you think We're joking huh !?" Chat spat as he kicked me again
,, when we say we want 100 we want 100 ! Not fucking 60 who do you think you are can't even get 100 "
Another kick while I was already on the ground. Somehow it didn't surprise me that they treated me like this because of money .

Yet it still hurt, not the punches or the kicks but the fact how they talked to me.
,, I'll give you 24 hours got it . This time 200 " he spat before I heard his lighter turn on and I dared to glance up at him with an empty expression

,, h-how am I suppo-"
,, we don't care just get it " sye the one who didn't talk much interferd throwing an arm around a smirking chat .

I spit the blood forming in my mouth to the side and slowly got onto my limbs.
They didn't even spare another glance to see If I had survived the kicks and punches they threw at me .

Limping back toward my car I literly fell onto my seats closing and locking the door after me as I blinked at my burning eyes .everything hurt and I couldn't even whipe over my face like I usually did when I'm stressed .

I pulled down the mirror over me to see severely bruises forming on my face .
,, fuck !" I hit the steering wheel in rage leaning forward to hurry myself in my hands resting on it .

What am I doing with my life ..
It's a total mess .
Everything is a total mess .what's the purpose to this why am I even doing this shit .i screw up anyway .
Fucked it all up .
I would try to start fixing it but the will was just missing .

I didn't want to . I had no reason to .
I didn't want to end up like everyone else , having a normal job eating sleeping working that's not what i want .but this isn't what I want either

Sighing one last time I leaned back grabbing forward to get another cigarette .

I realized this wasn't worth it .

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I ended up driving to the supermarket and buying myself a full pack of beer bottles before I drove out again drinking one bottle after another .I just ended up driving back to the cliff

Sounds weird but something inside me carved the feeling of peace .
It made me just think of the stars and how much I wanted to see them again .

So it was that I ended up just slightly drunk ,laying on the roof of my car as I stared out onto the stars .

This time there were a few clouds but nonetheless it didn't cover all of the stars in fact it just made them seem prettier.  I gotta give it to the freak .
The stars were way prettier than the lights of the city.

God what was wrong with him and with me. It seemed too sappy and stupid yet I couldn't help but think of it over and over . His voice the sound of him singing that song that left me blank somehow just appears in the back of my mind . And I sighed once I realized that I kinda wanted him to be with me right now .

My hand reached forward and I looked at the stairs between the gapes of my fingers .just like he did . I glanced at the shadow of my hand constandly turning it and moving it slowly to aspect every tiny precious star.

If i would end it now, Would it really matter ?

,, looking at the stars ?" My hand fell and I turned my head .

I actually huffed as I saw him ,
There he stood his hands folded shyly together and a cap hiding his face but I could still recognize him by his voice and his stature .besides that , his eyes sparkled a little from the little light of the stars .