Surviving | In The Life Of An Author

Not | Love/Hope Poem

I'm not going anywhere,
I can't go anywhere,
I'm hooked,
Stuck with this feeling
Of wanting to be with you.

Stupid,
Naive,
The list could go on forever,
But at least I know I am
Which you'd think would make me
Realize that I need to just walk away
But that's the thing I feel pained
To see you with someone else,
Yes I want you to be happy
So if I act like everything's okay
Maybe I'll forget so you can be happy.

I know I won't just forget though
It will take me awhile
But hopefully
You'll come back before I forget
What I'm missing right now,
I don't mean that in the
I hope you relationship fails way though
But the I miss and want you back way.

I don't know why
But I feel like if I don't have you one more time
I'll forever be stuck in love with you
And that I'll crave you for a long time,
Like I miss you smiling at me,
You just sitting there with me in the quite,
You running to see me thinking I'd leave,
I miss it all so
I'm not going to just leave
I can't and won't.

Maybe you'll want me back
As much as I want you back,
So I'll hold on to my hope
And wait
And as time passes maybe
I'll lose this feeling and become numb to it all
Or maybe you'll come back to me
But the hope is you'll come back.